Help False hope

[kindawannacrylol]

I keep getting into a cycle of false hope. I'll start preparing plans to ctb but for some reason my brain will convince me that I'm being overdramatic and things will get better, i simply just need to get my life together. But then reality hits and I realise things will never change, so I plan to ctb but, just like previously, the same voice keeps trying to give me a false sense of hope. And I know I want to ctb, there is no reason to have hope because whenever I do have it, I'm proven wrong time and time again. I want to get rid of this voice but i'm unsure how to :(

 

[WornOutLife]

I have false hope as regards my fate too.
I mean, things could be really GREAT if I really wanted to but unfortunately....depression ends up kicking my ass.

I'm fed up with this eternal cycle. For this reason, I'll probably ctb soon.

 

[greebo6]

Seems to me that hope can be ,and so often is, a very cruel thing.

 

[Daveyjones]

I keep getting into a cycle of false hope. I'll start preparing plans to ctb but for some reason my brain will convince me that I'm being overdramatic and things will get better, i simply just need to get my life together. But then reality hits and I realise things will never change, so I plan to ctb but, just like previously, the same voice keeps trying to give me a false sense of hope. And I know I want to ctb, there is no reason to have hope because whenever I do have it, I'm proven wrong time and time again. I want to get rid of this voice but i'm unsure how to :(

I 100% relate, I'm literally in the same cycle currently. I keep telling myself to find something but nothing ever comes to mind and back to square one.

I have false hope as regards my fate too.
I mean, things could be really GREAT if I really wanted to but unfortunately....depression ends up kicking my ass.

I wish I could relate but I feel the opposite. Even if I want them to be great I don't feel they ever will be.

 

[Spiral]

I keep getting into a cycle of false hope. I'll start preparing plans to ctb but for some reason my brain will convince me that I'm being overdramatic and things will get better, i simply just need to get my life together. But then reality hits and I realise things will never change, so I plan to ctb but, just like previously, the same voice keeps trying to give me a false sense of hope. And I know I want to ctb, there is no reason to have hope because whenever I do have it, I'm proven wrong time and time again. I want to get rid of this voice but i'm unsure how to :(

Did you read my mind? xD
My brain does the exact same thing and I have to keep reminding myself of the facts, so I don't string myself along with false hope. I don't know if the voice can go away. I just try to ignore mine now, but I don't have much control over it, like....2 weeks ago I enrolled in an online micro course to improve my employability, why did I do that when I know that I want to ctb? My brain is an idiot. Anyway I passed the course, and then I put money aside for my ctb kit *facepalm*

 

[booray]

I have to keep reminding myself that my situation is hopeless, which it is, and then hopefully (pun intended), I'll muster up the courage to ctb.