Help Fake and Attempt for Help?

[LastAcrobat]

I've told other that they should try every other possible option before CTB and I feel it would be hypocritical for me if I didn't do the same, but now I'm thinking there is a limit to that.

A part of me wants to purposely fail an attempt in a way that hopefully won't permanently hurt me, or something similar, just to maybe… maybe get someone to listen to it as a final cry for help? I mean "worst case scenario" I just CTB and I mean, that's kinda the goal in the end anyways lol.

I don't know if it's worth trying this last cry or not? It does seem overly risky with little to no reward…

 

[jazzcat621]

If your unable to get the attention you need without attempting suicide, chances are you probably wont get it after. Coming from someone who was caught during an attempt. All I got was more anger, shame, and trouble :(

 

[NotSoEnchanted]

You don't have to risk your life for a cry for help. In February after a failed attempt I decided to give life one last shot, and had family call Police/EMS on me as I was incredibly drunk and felt like killing myself, but in the same hand wanted to 'try' to stay one last time. Long story short, I ended up in a treatment facility which didn't do shit for me, outside of encourage me to never reach out for help again. Although during my time spent in the actual hospital, I did have a variety of sitters and nurses that provided me space to share bits of my story and perspective, which was very cathartic and I'm grateful for that.

I don't mean to discourage you seeking help by sharing my experience, everyone's experience is different and I'm a firm believer that you should exhaust damn near all your options before going through with CTB. Why not try one last time? You said so yourself, you believe someone should try every other possible option first, so be consistent in your belief and extend that attitude to your own life