Ameya
A nobody
- Mar 22, 2021
- 130
Personally I have tried multiple times to go against the odds against life. I just can't anymore I am tired. I am a academic failure. My grades never have been so bad (well they haven't been the best either). It thought this was the only thing in life I could get right, but not even that. I learned so hard. Hours. Days. Weeks. Months all wasted. I actually sat my ass down and learned. Nothing. Nothing. Not even the bare minimum. Why even bother trying anymore?
Not only that, I am a failure of every aspect in my life. No stable relationships. No goals. Nobody. I was never close to anyone very much. I don't know why. I tried. I did. For example I actually tired to do the first steps. Inviting people over. Putting myself out there to complete strangers. It was all to waste. I still feel empty and hollow inside. Fuck I couldn't even do suicide proper. My overdosing attempt failed and I creamed like a coward to the doctor. Trying to dehydrate myself didn't last long only 2 days and I gave in. I just want to find peace, but it's so hard to obtain
Not only that, I am a failure of every aspect in my life. No stable relationships. No goals. Nobody. I was never close to anyone very much. I don't know why. I tried. I did. For example I actually tired to do the first steps. Inviting people over. Putting myself out there to complete strangers. It was all to waste. I still feel empty and hollow inside. Fuck I couldn't even do suicide proper. My overdosing attempt failed and I creamed like a coward to the doctor. Trying to dehydrate myself didn't last long only 2 days and I gave in. I just want to find peace, but it's so hard to obtain
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