Story Failed like usual

[MeaningDork]

So, I decided that tonight was the night I was finally going to try and die again after postponing because I didn't want to get sent back into the psych ward again. I became wary when I was promised that I'd be sent home that time but they lied and just put my back in the psych ward. I had a huge mental breakdown and I didn't want to experience that again.

After thinking about it I tried tried to jump off a bridge but there was one problem, I was too short to jump past the railings.
I guessed someone tried before and they decided to prevent any future attempts but having very high railings.
I've tried three times before and this was my fourth attempt and it was ruined because I'm too short.
Not only do I feel embarrassed but my height dysphoria was triggered in full force.
I honestly hate how hard it is to die in this country.

 

[FuneralCry]

It's so dreadful and cruel to me how we cannot just have the option to easily cease existing in peace but anyway best wishes, I certainly hate as well how suicide is purposely made so inaccessible.