Venting Failed, failed, failed again

[Ineedtobedead]

I was supposed to end myself last night with the touniquet method and be at peace now, but of course it didn't work for me, of course it worked for so many people but didnt work for me, lol. I did it with a shoelace first, twisted it with a wooden stick as fast as I can, but the exploding head feeling still built up, so I kept twisting, and then guess what, the shoelace fucking snapped. So I continued with a bathrobe belt, I twisted and twisted until I started making asthma noises, even though I put thick paddings on both arteries, head exploding pressure, counted to 20, still not blacking out. Then I just pulled the bathrobe belt with both my hands until I physically couldn't pull any further, and still, head exploding. Then I used my belt, pulled the hardest I can, buckled it, still. not. passing. out.

Why!?! just why!??!?!?

 

[c824767]

same for me. super frustrating

 

[DoesANameEvenMatter]

Welcome to the failed at ctb through compressing carotid artery club. I suggest researching other methods(SN)

 

[MeltingHeart]

Yep. Tried also. In very basic terms head explosion feeling means you are compressing the jugular arteries before the carotid one's that's all I know. It can still work I believe - but feels horrible & takes longer.

 

[dedalus1238900]

I know how you feel. Luckily you weren't found, saved and sent to a hospital/Psych ward. I think we feel bad about failure; because people on this site are usually pretty intelligent and researched their method, did everything by the book and it didn't work and I know I've had the thought of why did I fail when I researched everything and thought this is full proof; and it fails, we then have the negative thought I can't even do this right and it becomes demoralizing while you hear news stories about someone who is young or attempted it on a whim without the right equipment and succeeds so easily. So people here in a failure are frustrated that they did everything to ensure/prepare for success and fail while we see others succeed so easily it frustrates us.

 

[Mr2005]

Story of my life

 

[Ineedtobedead]

Welcome to the failed at ctb through compressing carotid artery club. I suggest researching other methods(SN)

I can't find any high purity SN anywhere online in my country, only some color fixative crap that consists of only 54% SN

 

[Taki]

I can't find any high purity SN anywhere online in my country, only some color fixative crap that consists of only 54% SN

People need access to safe and reliable means. There is no difference between suicide and abortion.

 

[TiredAndReadyToGo]

I have been attempting the night night method for about 2 or 3 weeks now and exact same results as you, minus having the ratchet strap snapping. It makes you feel even worse when you don't success because it just makes you feel like even more of a failure (at least in my case). It's so frustrating to be trying so hard only to not be able to acheive the one thing you're actively working on and want so badly. I've resigned to the diphen+alcohol method, I know it might not be the most peaceful method but it is effect at high doses, most people just don't do thorough research on it and read stories of people tripping on like a 10th of the lethal dose. Don't get me wrong I'm not advocating for it or advising you yo use the method but it's how I'm CTB. I hope whatever you choose to do you find peace

 

[Hadenuf]

Same here tried that several times over the last week and same problem

 

[MissNietzsche]

Yep..I actually have a choking fetish, but I'm single, so I've attempted auto-erotic asphyxiation, and I fail every time. I just can't seem to find the spot like my ex did.

You're okay dude, just try a different method. The tourniquet method seems really difficult to get down tbh

 

[Mizzmini45]

I can't find any high purity SN anywhere online in my country, only some color fixative crap that consists of only 54% SN

what country are you from?

 

[Ineedtobedead]

what country are you from?

China. I found it. just dont know if I could trust the seller on the purity..

 

[crybaby]

China. I found it. just dont know if I could trust the seller on the purity..

我也在中國，我訂購了1688上所出售的純度99.5%食品級sn，並準備測試。 聽別人說有個簡略的測試方法，把一點sn灑在傷口上，如果血液變成棕色，那就代表可行。如果不行，我會在ebay上訂購。

 

[Ineedtobedead]

我也在中國，我訂購了1688上所出售的純度99.5%食品級sn，並準備測試。 聽別人說有個簡略的測試方法，把一點sn灑在傷口上，如果血液變成棕色，那就代表可行。如果不行，我會在ebay上訂購。

我在淘宝上找到了，打算用刀子割破手滴一滴血试一下.. 1688？我刚搜了一下那上面都是工业级亚硝酸钠啊而且要企业认证，批发量至少要一顿..

 

[crybaby]

我看過淘寶上的很多都有評論說是假的...或者根本沒什麼人評論...所以..idk ...不知道能不能相信。我買的是這個，可以直接拍下付款，而且評論裡也有人說商品沒問題/很好。

 

[Ineedtobedead]

我看過淘寶上的很多都有評論說是假的...或者根本沒什麼人評論...所以..idk ...不知道能不能相信。我買的是這個，可以直接拍下付款，而且評論裡也有人說商品沒問題/很好。
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嗯嗯，我也是看到评论里有人说纯度很低，问了卖家，卖家让我拍下以后备注"亚硝酸钠"，就给我发真正的亚硝酸钠，保证99%纯度，我收到的就是和图片上不一样的一个袋子，上面就写着NaNO2, 后面纯度是≥99%，拆包装的时候不小心把袋子割破了一点，闻了一下，立马感觉有点头晕呼吸有点困难的感觉，也不知道是心理作用还是

 

[crybaby]

心理作用唄哈哈，你在哪一家買的

 

[Ineedtobedead]

心理作用唄哈哈，你在哪一家買的

这网站好像不让公开发布卖家信息之类的..

 

[ValideSultana]

I was supposed to end myself last night with the touniquet method and be at peace now, but of course it didn't work for me, of course it worked for so many people but didnt work for me, lol. I did it with a shoelace first, twisted it with a wooden stick as fast as I can, but the exploding head feeling still built up, so I kept twisting, and then guess what, the shoelace fucking snapped. So I continued with a bathrobe belt, I twisted and twisted until I started making asthma noises, even though I put thick paddings on both arteries, head exploding pressure, counted to 20, still not blacking out. Then I just pulled the bathrobe belt with both my hands until I physically couldn't pull any further, and still, head exploding. Then I used my belt, pulled the hardest I can, buckled it, still. not. passing. out.

Why!?! just why!??!?!?

I know how you feel. I've tried this method plus various other methods and every single one of them has failed.

 

[Manja]

I know how you feel. I've tried this method plus various other methods and every single one of them has failed.

Can I ask what else you have tried?

 

[ValideSultana]

Can I ask what else you have tried?

Yes. A gunshot to the head (was caught whilst I was psyching myself to pull trigger)). Hanging (rope broke). Overdosing (was found unconscious and had stomach pumped...multiple times) and slashing my wrists open (was found bleeding profusely, stupid fucking doctor told me how lucky I was to have survived).

 

[c824767]

Yes. A gunshot to the head (was caught whilst I was psyching myself to pull trigger)). Hanging (rope broke). Overdosing (was found unconscious and had stomach pumped...multiple times) and slashing my wrists open (was found bleeding profusely, stupid fucking doctor told me how lucky I was to have survived).

I think the worst feeling of my life was when I realized I had not completed. I had to go through it twice. I never want to go there again. I want it to be guaranteed next time.

 

[ValideSultana]

I think the worst feeling of my life was when I realized I had not completed. I had to go through it twice. I never want to go there again. I want it to be guaranteed next time.

Exactly, knowing I failed after all the pain is horrendous. And now I know how painful some of these methods are, I'm too cowardly to try them again.

 

[Manja]

I think the worst feeling of my life was when I realized I had not completed. I had to go through it twice. I never want to go there again. I want it to be guaranteed next time.

That. I mean fuck I haven't tried it once and I expect and want to be the first and the last time. I couldn't stand failure. I really have to prepare everything like a pro.

 

[ValideSultana]

That. I mean fuck I haven't tried it once and I expect and want to be the first and the last time. I couldn't stand failure. I really have to prepare everything like a pro.

You really do. I've tried roughly 30 times and failed.

 

[c824767]

That. I mean fuck I haven't tried it once and I expect and want to be the first and the last time. I couldn't stand failure. I really have to prepare everything like a pro.

There is this movie where a woman has a shotgun connected to the door knob, a hangman's noose , a gas stove putting out propane, a molotov coctail to ignite the gas, poison to drink and a bunch of pills. At the last moment she screams for her husband, he opens the door, the shotgun destroys the hangman's noose, the poisonous drink falls from her hands, extinguishes the molotov cocktail, she falls down and the pills fall out of her mouth, go figure. fail fail fail. endure? recover? enjoy? get old, be eligible for assisted death ???????

 

[Manja]

I don't know man...I'm not thinking beyond this...no backup plan

 

[c824767]

I don't know man...I'm not thinking beyond this...no backup plan

no one forces you to think beyond and you are not required to have a backup plan. people who tell you that you have to this and have to that, are misguided. You can but you may decide not to...

 

[Ratbat]

I was supposed to end myself last night with the touniquet method and be at peace now, but of course it didn't work for me, of course it worked for so many people but didnt work for me, lol. I did it with a shoelace first, twisted it with a wooden stick as fast as I can, but the exploding head feeling still built up, so I kept twisting, and then guess what, the shoelace fucking snapped. So I continued with a bathrobe belt, I twisted and twisted until I started making asthma noises, even though I put thick paddings on both arteries, head exploding pressure, counted to 20, still not blacking out. Then I just pulled the bathrobe belt with both my hands until I physically couldn't pull any further, and still, head exploding. Then I used my belt, pulled the hardest I can, buckled it, still. not. passing. out.

Why!?! just why!??!?!?

Tried with a belt on door hangar tried noose on. A tree broke the rope tried to od just paniced didnt pass out