Story Failed attempt... again

[kingfool316]

Well, i'm back after a month. Got hospitalized. Minor brain damage, but somehow i'm not a vegetable. That's what i get for going for drowning. On the flip side, nobody thought i was trying to ctb, so there's that. To everybody it was an accident that i did not know that the river was strong enough to drag me far away. I went with that as to not get suspicion on me. It worked. Back to the drawing board

 

[Observer13]

Wow, glad you are fine. May I ask if you were under the influence of anything while drowning?

 

[monolog]

How painful was the experience

 

[Fresh Soju]

Sorry to hear it failed and that you're still in pain. Thanks for also showing the world there are people like us there, who try to CTB, fail (maybe multiple times) and still want to CTB, as media often portrays everyone regretting it.

 

[_void]

I'm glad to know that it didn't cause any severe physical damage, but oh how frustrating it is. Wishing you well

 

[locked*n*loaded]

It ended up being your SI was just too strong to drown yourself? Did you get "saved"? Drowning is a hard way. Glad you're alright.

 

[opheliaoveragain]

this is a rough method but I get it. i'm glad you're ok too. sending hugs. allow yourself some grace.

 

[xXSufferingXx]

i couldn't do drowning. i don't want to be reported missing.
and yeah you could write a note at home before doing it, but still...
and very sorry to hear you had to go thru this btw, glad your brain is not damaged

 

[AreWeWinning]

The only way I would try drowning is by attaching weights to myself. But even then, it's still difficult to find a location where no-one sees you, so it's problematic.

 

[kingfool316]

Wow, glad you are fine. May I ask if you were under the influence of anything while drowning?

Sober

How painful was the experience

Honestly, don't remember

How painful was the experience

Honestly, don't remember

It ended up being your SI was just too strong to drown yourself? Did you get "saved"? Drowning is a hard way. Glad you're alright.

Nope, someone spotted me and SAVED me. Really wished they didn't

 

[kingfool316]

Is there anything you would have done differently?

Probably done it at night, tie a weight, and make sure the water is cold enough to kill even a whale

 

[FadingSnowFake]

Sending love, thanks for sharing your experience. Glad to hear you are recovering well, be kind to yourself.

 

[kingfool316]

Thanks for replying - I didn't mean to sound heartless btw.

Heartless? Didn't even see it that way

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry you have to suffer, to me it just feels so cruel how trying to cease existing can go wrong and just lead to more suffering as a result. But anyway I wish you the best.