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[chadríguez]

I was suppose to go to a crossfit class and just counldn't do it. There was some jacked dude outside and a jacked women inside the building and that was all my already panicked brain needed to just say nope. I use to do mma and this exact feeling was there before class until I just couldn't take it anymore. Am I doomed to be like this for the rest of my life? I might see a psychiatrist soon, however the only person in my family who can pay for it has a detererating heart problem. If anyone else has this problem, how long does this last until I'm better? If it even is curable. I'm thinking about just ending it all honestly.

 

[jaxxon_sunn]

I have tried going into gyms over several years but could never be comfortable enough to actually work out. A few weeks ago I tried again, it was a small gym, only a few people in it and I had my brother to support me, but I couldn't do it. I had to go home. If theres any people in there at all I feel like they are just judging me and I'm on high alert. I already don't know how any of the machines work so I'm already embarrassed. Thats how I knew I wasn't going to get better without major help or intervention. I'm still working on this so I don't know how long it will last. I'd just say do a tiny bit of whatever is outside your comfort zone at a time. No matter if its walking inside the gym or standing by the door, its progress, at least for me.

 

[chadríguez]

No matter if its walking inside the gym or standing by the door, its progress, at least for me.

Thanks for the advice, I heard going when it's empty helps as well.