Venting f@@k waking up

[LittleJem]

wwking up at 5 am for suicidal thoughts to begin again. F@@k. I want to sleep my life away. F@@k being housed on a f@@king main road and right next to a f@@ling airport. F@@k my life.

I have a 9.30 am appointment with the msntal hesltg team. F@@k my life.

 

[ThatStateOfMind]

wwking up at 5 am for suicidal thoughts to begin again. F@@k. I want to sleep my life away. F@@k being housed on a f@@king main road and right next to a f@@ling airport. F@@k my life.

I have a 9.30 am appointment with the msntal hesltg team. F@@k my life.

I don't really have much help to offer but I hope the appointment goes alright.

 

[finnn]

wwking up at 5 am for suicidal thoughts to begin again. F@@k. I want to sleep my life away. F@@k being housed on a f@@king main road and right next to a f@@ling airport. F@@k my life.

I have a 9.30 am appointment with the msntal hesltg team. F@@k my life.

i hope you feel better soon and that the appointment will go well! Best wishes to you. <3

 

[Darkover]

i was awake 18 hours and only got 5 hours sleep

 

[LittleJem]

hi thanks all. I don't mind the appointment. I am beginning to think I will be going quite soon. So in the meeting need to ensure I am vague not definite. Yes, I have plans. No, not immanent. AFD. Another F@@king Day.

 

[orca87]

I wake up around 7am every morning. Everything is wet because of sweat. It's not that I wake up and than a thought of failure or suicidal ideation Pops into my mind like a flash. It's more like this painful thoughts are already there and the cause of waking up.

It's been like this for 30 years now

 

[LittleJem]

oh man. I know. I feel lucky that I sleep. Then suicidal thoughts all day till I sleep again. Scared to sleep because of waking up.

 

[WorthlessCoward]

To sleep, perhaps to dream

 

[FuneralCry]

I view it as being something very horrible having to wake up, if only there was the option to just choose to never wake again, I see nothing more ideal than being permanently free from the burden that is existence. Life really is just meaningless suffering, where endless days repeat in a loop, leading to nothing and nowhere apart from our inevitable death. I see no benefit to being awake.

 

[deadhead12!]

wwking up at 5 am for suicidal thoughts to begin again. F@@k. I want to sleep my life away. F@@k being housed on a f@@king main road and right next to a f@@ling airport. F@@k my life.

I have a 9.30 am appointment with the msntal hesltg team. F@@k my life.

relatable