resolutory
Experienced
- Sep 13, 2022
- 258
I thought this thread on Reddit today was interesting:
'Today I signed up to Expertisecentrum Euthanasie, which is the Dutch organisation that arranges euthanasia for people that have no quality of life either physically, mentally or both. I did this in secret. Only my doctor knows. In the past I have tried to involve my mother in this process but she doesn't want to have anything to do with it. Which I get, but it does feel lonely to make such a decision on my own. I don't think anyone understands how far gone I am. I am a victim of incest, domestic violence and bullying. My mom and brother used to be addicted. A lot of trauma comes from being an undiagnosed autistic and trying to be normal. All I had was myself and my art. I built an entire life around my art and believed I could really make it. I got into art school and graduated. But for the past couple of years I feel like even that doesn't make me happy anymore. I built my life around wanting to be an artist and nothing else. I didn't think about kids, about a partner, about loved ones. All I cared about was getting my name out, making connections etc. It was my survival mechanism. Every time something bad happened, I thought to myself: this is going to be of use one day, I can make a story out of this. But I just can't do it anymore. Too much happened and I am in pain every day. No therapy helps. I have had it all, even 'alternative' health care that wasn't covered by insurance. I am at a dead end and I can't do it anymore. It is cruel that the part of me that truly believed in becoming an artist kept me alive for so long. All I want is just to be gone. And since I am too much of a pussy to do it myself, I need the help.'
I expect it'll be deleted by the mods soon.
'Today I signed up to Expertisecentrum Euthanasie, which is the Dutch organisation that arranges euthanasia for people that have no quality of life either physically, mentally or both. I did this in secret. Only my doctor knows. In the past I have tried to involve my mother in this process but she doesn't want to have anything to do with it. Which I get, but it does feel lonely to make such a decision on my own. I don't think anyone understands how far gone I am. I am a victim of incest, domestic violence and bullying. My mom and brother used to be addicted. A lot of trauma comes from being an undiagnosed autistic and trying to be normal. All I had was myself and my art. I built an entire life around my art and believed I could really make it. I got into art school and graduated. But for the past couple of years I feel like even that doesn't make me happy anymore. I built my life around wanting to be an artist and nothing else. I didn't think about kids, about a partner, about loved ones. All I cared about was getting my name out, making connections etc. It was my survival mechanism. Every time something bad happened, I thought to myself: this is going to be of use one day, I can make a story out of this. But I just can't do it anymore. Too much happened and I am in pain every day. No therapy helps. I have had it all, even 'alternative' health care that wasn't covered by insurance. I am at a dead end and I can't do it anymore. It is cruel that the part of me that truly believed in becoming an artist kept me alive for so long. All I want is just to be gone. And since I am too much of a pussy to do it myself, I need the help.'
I expect it'll be deleted by the mods soon.