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resolutory

resolutory

Experienced
Sep 13, 2022
258
I thought this thread on Reddit today was interesting:

'Today I signed up to Expertisecentrum Euthanasie, which is the Dutch organisation that arranges euthanasia for people that have no quality of life either physically, mentally or both. I did this in secret. Only my doctor knows. In the past I have tried to involve my mother in this process but she doesn't want to have anything to do with it. Which I get, but it does feel lonely to make such a decision on my own. I don't think anyone understands how far gone I am. I am a victim of incest, domestic violence and bullying. My mom and brother used to be addicted. A lot of trauma comes from being an undiagnosed autistic and trying to be normal. All I had was myself and my art. I built an entire life around my art and believed I could really make it. I got into art school and graduated. But for the past couple of years I feel like even that doesn't make me happy anymore. I built my life around wanting to be an artist and nothing else. I didn't think about kids, about a partner, about loved ones. All I cared about was getting my name out, making connections etc. It was my survival mechanism. Every time something bad happened, I thought to myself: this is going to be of use one day, I can make a story out of this. But I just can't do it anymore. Too much happened and I am in pain every day. No therapy helps. I have had it all, even 'alternative' health care that wasn't covered by insurance. I am at a dead end and I can't do it anymore. It is cruel that the part of me that truly believed in becoming an artist kept me alive for so long. All I want is just to be gone. And since I am too much of a pussy to do it myself, I need the help.'

I expect it'll be deleted by the mods soon.
 
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SadJessu

SadJessu

Just tired.
Aug 17, 2020
168
I had dreams of going to art school. I had to drop out (or get kicked out rather) because I couldn't get through the required math courses at the first year level, despite my grades being perfect otherwise. I'm also autistic and have pretty severe Dyscalculia. It was crushing. I understand the feeling of art being your only escape, wanting that to be something you could rely on, and finding out that it isn't meant to be.

I'm deeply sorry you're experiencing this pain.
 
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R. A.

R. A.

Some day the dream will end
Aug 8, 2022
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I literally just read that person's post over there, then saw this in the sidebar. Funny coincidence. Does the existence of this organization mean that things in the Netherlands are not quite like Switzerland but there is an option, more like Canada? And @SadJessu I don't think it's OP's story, just sharing it.
 
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hush hush

Student
May 13, 2022
128
I thought this thread on Reddit today was interesting:

'Today I signed up to Expertisecentrum Euthanasie, which is the Dutch organisation that arranges euthanasia for people that have no quality of life either physically, mentally or both. I did this in secret. Only my doctor knows. In the past I have tried to involve my mother in this process but she doesn't want to have anything to do with it. Which I get, but it does feel lonely to make such a decision on my own. I don't think anyone understands how far gone I am. I am a victim of incest, domestic violence and bullying. My mom and brother used to be addicted. A lot of trauma comes from being an undiagnosed autistic and trying to be normal. All I had was myself and my art. I built an entire life around my art and believed I could really make it. I got into art school and graduated. But for the past couple of years I feel like even that doesn't make me happy anymore. I built my life around wanting to be an artist and nothing else. I didn't think about kids, about a partner, about loved ones. All I cared about was getting my name out, making connections etc. It was my survival mechanism. Every time something bad happened, I thought to myself: this is going to be of use one day, I can make a story out of this. But I just can't do it anymore. Too much happened and I am in pain every day. No therapy helps. I have had it all, even 'alternative' health care that wasn't covered by insurance. I am at a dead end and I can't do it anymore. It is cruel that the part of me that truly believed in becoming an artist kept me alive for so long. All I want is just to be gone. And since I am too much of a pussy to do it myself, I need the help.'

I expect it'll be deleted by the mods soon.
Many euthanasia requests get rejected by physicians. Psychiatrists reject 68%-90% of requests and force individuals into therapy since you do not have the right to refuse treatment in the Netherlands. Unless you have received approval do not rely on them too much! I encourage you to take the matter in your own hands instead of outsourcing it to doctors, only you can decide about your life
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
45,765
I envy those who are able to be euthanised. Those who are actually able to get it are lucky as they don't have to research methods and worry about any potential method failures. But it seems difficult to be accepted in the countries where it's legal anyway.
In an ideal world we would all be able to exit peacefully. We are forced into this life we never asked for so we shouldn't have to struggle and suffer so much to finally leave it. But I hope the person in the reddit thread finds what they are looking for. It must had been horrific having to endure such extreme suffering.
 
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resolutory

resolutory

Experienced
Sep 13, 2022
258
Many euthanasia requests get rejected by physicians. Psychiatrists reject 68%-90% of requests and force individuals into therapy since you do not have the right to refuse treatment in the Netherlands. Unless you have received approval do not rely on them too much! I encourage you to take the matter in your own hands instead of outsourcing it to doctors, only you can decide about your life
That's true, it's probably best to do it yourself I guess.... too bad the doctors have the best equipment for it.
 
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hush hush

Student
May 13, 2022
128
That's true, it's probably best to do it yourself I guess.... too bad the doctors have the best equipment for it.
I am so passionate about the right to die that I did not notice it was just a Reddit post and not your own personal post. :D
Yes, we have made the drugs required to commit suicide available upon prescription and illegal to buy them otherwise. Prescription laws are evil and another example of unwanted medical paternalism.
 

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