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[Leaving soon]

Good day

I've been depressed for 2 years now. Therapist prescribed me Zoloft. It helped a little, but it has not made me any less suicidal. Before I get an opportunity to off myself I'll have to endure this for several months. I'll have to lie to my parents about this. I hate lying

What if they find out what I'm planning to do? What am I going to do if I fail to poison myself?

I've never been so scared in my life

 

[Rachel74]

Good day

I've been depressed for 2 years now. Therapist prescribed me Zoloft. It helped a little, but it has not made me any less suicidal. Before I get an opportunity to off myself I'll have to endure this for several months. I'll have to lie to my parents about this. I hate lying

What if they find out what I'm planning to do? What am I going to do if I fail to poison myself?

I've never been so scared in my life

Have you told your Dr so you can have an increase or try something else. You might as well if you have to stay around for a bit.

 

[teotme]

Hello and welcome. Before you try poisoning yourself please check out the threads here to get a better idea what works.

 

[Soul]

@Leaving soon, I'm sorry you're struggling. If you look in the List of Resources near the top of the forum, you'll find links to a lot of educational reading. Please don't rush anything, and please be careful. We don't want you to do anything that would just make your situation worse. x

 

[woxihuanni]

As well as looking at resources, please feel free to share and vent as much as you need. A lot of people find SS more helpful than shrinks.

 

[CrushedHopes]

I get the fear of having to lie to your parents. Like the others said above, please research CTB methods with the resources here first.

I only have to lie to parents for about a week or so (I'm looking to CTB around mid Nov) and hopefully they get off of my case with the constant phone calls. I had expressed wanting to CTB on the day of the callout and fell into depression immediately. I'm only more relieved now knowing I am not long for this world very soon. I don't think they will see it coming. They don't think I'm serious about CTBing (on my first phone call with them regarding the subject, I said I would like to discuss suicide options with them).

 

[Rachel74]

I only have to lie to parents for about a week or so (I'm looking to CTB around mid Nov) and hopefully they get off of my case with the constant phone calls. I had expressed wanting to CTB on the day of the callout and fell into depression immediately. I'm only more relieved now knowing I am not long for this world very soon. I don't think they will see it coming. They don't think I'm serious about CTBing (on my first phone call with them regarding the subject, I said I would like to discuss suicide options with them).

Just answer their calls they will hopefully back off and try and act normal to them.,

 

[CrushedHopes]

Just answer their calls they will hopefully back off and try and act normal to them.,

Yeah, I have a call scheduled with them tomorrow, and I'll just pretend everything's fine. I'm a good liar. I've lied a lot in the past 7-8 years. Being an ex-actor helps in that regard too.

 

[Rachel74]

Yeah, I have a call scheduled with them tomorrow, and I'll just pretend everything's fine. I'm a good liar. I've lied a lot in the past 7-8 years. Being an ex-actor helps in that regard too.

I do it on a daily basis. Just so they leave me alone x