Exam season makes me want to commit even more

[tears and vomit]

Holy hell, I don't think I ever feel more suicidal than when exams come around. I'm unbelievably stressed. Teachers expect us to learn an insane amount of information for a test that basically predicts most of our future, and honestly, it feels completely unethical.


I feel like I'm drowning. I wake up, study, panic, and sometimes I literally feel sick. I throw up from stress. I'm exhausted, and I hate how much these tests determine our lives. I hate the pressure. I hate the fear of disappointing everyone. I hate how nobody talks about how damaging this is.


And the worst part is exams never stop. They just keep coming tests after tests, college, job interviews, evaluations all to get a job I dont even like????

I'm so tired of being alive like this. I just want to be a kid again I want my innocence and freedom back pleaseee
This hurts me every day. I can't do it anymore. I just want to cry and throw up all day. I feel trapped.
I need help. I need someone to understand that I'm not lazy I'm genuinely struggling, and I feel like I'm acc gonna jump

 

[MMOSTHATED]

And your parents always have high expectations of you. If wasn't for my parents, I honestly wouldn't stress as much