I want to die because i suffer stabbing hallucination, disgusting thoughts and injury in my neck from demonic attack. But thats the thing i found out GOD IS EVIL PERVERTED PIG and that theres long years of burning hell after death(from someone who had supernatural evil too)! I had too many supernatural evil experience to deny and god violated me so many times using my family during sleep. God is the most sadistic perverted pig but i dont understand how he created absolute things like family and humans capable of so much suffering when hes nothing like it!!!! Im DESPERATE TO MAKE GOD SUFFER WHAT HE PUT HUMANS THROUGH. I dont want me or my family to go to hell i NEED TO STOP GOD! sounds crazy i wish i was!!!!
Red star
Experienced
- Sep 15, 2018
- 206
Shit that sounds terrifying
Its not schizophrenia? Has any traumas happened to you in the early stages of life that might explain this?
Its not schizophrenia? Has any traumas happened to you in the early stages of life that might explain this?
No it doesnt. Schizophrenia is cunt god torturing people its not a mental illness. Ive had shit in my neck for 7 years now and the dreams i have are not your normal dreams i get attacked violated god cunt entering my body being dragged out of my body thrown up in the air and the MOST UNSPEAKABLY perverted dreams. Recent dream REALLY UNBELIEVABLY EVIL i cant believe such a pig created human like me and almost everyone else!!! How can filth create pure things? If i was filth perversion wouldnt torture me! I know people will bash me because most people dont suffer this shit and think im crazy. I WISH I WAS. I NEED TO MAKE GOD SUFFER WHAT HE PUT HUMANITY THROUGH. I cant accept fate of burning for years and years in the most excruxuating pain let alone my family!!! But my life is already hell i want TO DIE.
Worst part is this isnt even half the shit i suffered!! Things get REALLY EVIL AND OUT OF THIS WORLD. I cant even tell you!!!!!
This is trippy stuff. I like it.
If God is real, count me in on killing It. He's a psycho.
If God is real, count me in on killing It. He's a psycho.
That piece of shit is real and not only he caused all your suffering he was laughing at you as you suffered. Please curse him.
worldexploder
Visionary
- Sep 19, 2018
- 2,821
Damn dude. I'm so so sorry that you are going though this. If you read the Bible from cover to cover you will find that the book was written by ancient psychopaths. More ISIS than love.
Have you ever been diagnosed with anything like schizophrenia? No shame in that btw. Just wondering. You don't have to answer if you don't feel comfortable with it.
Have you ever been diagnosed with anything like schizophrenia? No shame in that btw. Just wondering. You don't have to answer if you don't feel comfortable with it.
No
not schizo. I wish it was just mental illness but ive experienced too much to be blissfully atheist.
bigj75
“From Knowledge springs power."
- Sep 1, 2018
- 2,540
Idk if it's god or people who are at fault tbh.
Its god. Humans do not have free will we are slave to fear and instinct we didnt create ourselves. But i do believe in human conscience, the awareness we been dishonoured and wronged. Most people do not experience shit bad enough to realise but I HAVE MUCH TO SAY. Theres more to this shit but you wont believe me.
bigj75
“From Knowledge springs power."
- Sep 1, 2018
- 2,540
I believe that self awareness. I've studied psychology for years and I'm at the point now where i feel so disconnected to people. I can see their hypocrisy and ignorance constantly. Its disturbing.
deathbycakes
Member
- Sep 14, 2018
- 97
i really hate clozapine, that stuff made me drools and lethargic. can't even move my damn body.
do you have any tips to avoid these side effects? (sorry oot)
This doesnt deny the experiences i had and the injury in my neck for 7 years from a demonic god attack.
Sorry everyone. God is still evil but i now believe death is final. God was messing with me the whole time. According to sean carroll its physically impossible to have life after death.
Rollo
No pasaran
- Aug 13, 2018
- 461
But physically speaking was it your family that violated you?
No no. In my dreams i had the most perverted dreams involving them but they arent normal nightmares.
longingforrelease
Specialist
- Oct 27, 2018
- 381
Though at times in my life I enjoyed a life I tried to ground in spiritual (not religious) principles that I learned in AA, such as just trying to live a rigorously honest and truthful life, do the next right/ethical thing, give back to those still suffering, etc. I eventually came to terms with a belief in a power greater than myself (though what that power is I couldn't tell you and it didn't seem to matter that I didn't know). After medically prescribed amphetamines turned into abuse/addiction and sparked a massive very long manic phase, I destroyed the life I had built. I tried going back to NA and AA but I seemed unable to reconnect to that spiritual path. I don't blame whatever higher power was operating in my life before for my current inability to regain the spiritual path I was on, but I do share some of the sentiments shared here about god. Perhaps the most powerful indictment is the often-cited inscription carved into a wall in a WWI death camp attached here.
