Venting Everything requires so much planning

[birthdayboy]

Almost everyone I know who's CTB has done so by hanging, and I think I'm just going to do that. I realize it's not the most painless method, but it seems like unconsciousness comes pretty quickly, and I've got a few pills in my drawer that should help with some of the pain and anxiety. Plus, knowing people who've done it makes it less scary to me.

I keep looking and considering all the recommended methods, and either they're not readily availably to me (like SN or firearms), or they're so complicated and confusing to set up (like charcoal). The thought of trying to do anything that complicated overwhelms me. I can barely function as it is due to my mental health problems.

With this, all I need is a sturdy rope that I can easily get from any hardware store, probably even Walmart or a dollar store, a ladder which I already have, and a sturdy branch on a hardwood tree like oak, which I have plenty in my neighborhood.

My plan is to wait for a cool enough day and then get bundled up completely in my snowboard gear because that should reduce the chance of someone being traumatized by finding me, since virtually no part of my skin will even be visible. I've got everything I need, just need to pick an appropriate date.
I'm talking about hanging, if that's not clear sorry. It's worked for everyone I know who's done it.

Edit: Sorry, I'm talking about hanging. It's worked for everyone I know who's tried it

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand, the methods are inaccessible and feel complicated to me as well, I personally just wish for a death like never waking again. But anyway I hope that you find peace from all the suffering, best wishes.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

that should reduce the chance of someone being traumatized by finding me, since virtually no part of my skin will even be visible.

I think the "traumatizing" aspect would come more from the state of seeing someone hanging by their neck with a rope rather than by the state of dress. But, you need to do what you feel right for yourself, and if you feel that being clothed in the way you describe would lessen the impact to others, I think that's all that really matters.

 

[birthdayboy]

I think the "traumatizing" aspect would come more from the state of seeing someone hanging by their neck with a rope rather than by the state of dress. But, you need to do what you feel right for yourself, and if you feel that being clothed in the way you describe would lessen the impact to others, I think that's all that really matters.

I mean, my nephew looked pretty ghastly when we took him down. Even though the sight of someone hanging would still be traumatic, even so I feel like things like the discoloration and facial expression are worse. Can't get that image out of your head.

I understand, the methods are inaccessible and feel complicated to me as well, I personally just wish for a death like never waking again. But anyway I hope that you find peace from all the suffering, best wishes.

Thank you so much. And I agree that never waking again would be ideal. I have a little bit of something on hand that might work for that very thing, but I can't get enough to do the trick, and I've never seen an attempted OD where the person didn't suffer miserably after. Hanging seems pretty reliable, in my experience.

 

[imdonewithallofthis]

I understand, the methods are inaccessible and feel complicated to me as well, I personally just wish for a death like never waking again. But anyway I hope that you find peace from all the suffering, best wishes.

I feel the same way. I wish it wasn't so complicated. People who want to live die everyday. And then when we actually want to die it's so difficult

 

[Flippintogo]

Simply not waking up would be ideal. Everything else has so many things that could go wrong. I'm afraid of using my gun as I might just screw it up.

 

[identity0]

I agree and have chosen the same method. Already have a rope (12mm polypropylene) but havent managed to find a good tree yet (in my neighbourhood it seems very hard). I think today ill go looking again

 

[pandorasactor]

I'm I the same situation you are. I'm going to do full suspension in my closet. I was wondering what medication helps with the pain? I assume when you drop it'll take around 10 seconds to fall under due to gravity but honestly wouldn't mind numbing myself beforehand.