everything ready to ctb

[Olorin]

Have my SN, have Reglan, painkillers and antacids. I think I'll do it very soon, this weekend even. I hope everything goes well. At the moment I don't really feel like leaving a note. Mom is the only person I feel really bad about but she should know best why.
I know I wasn't here long, but I've been lurking for a while. It's fucked how many people are there, no matter from, who have nothing and no one. All my life I felt like an intruder, an observer, never really fitting in, the usual. Had depression and anxiety since who know when. Autism probably, too. Life completely passed me by and I wasn't even aware of it. Nothing ever changed, just gotten worse. After 32 years this is how it ends. I guess I could write a wall of text but you've all seen it a thousand times, and it's always the same.

I will post in this thread when the time comes, and try to give updates. If I miss the bus will try to report back as soon as I can.

Only issue I can think of is that I have a not insignificant amount of money in the bank, what will happen to it? Should I write a will? Is it enough if I just write on a piece of paper that I leave all my money to my brother for example?

 

[Pluto]

Only issue I can think of is that I have a not insignificant amount of money in the bank, what will happen to it? Should I write a will? Is it enough if I just write on a piece of paper that I leave all my money to my brother for example?

Good that you are in control.

Regarding the money, laws vary and should be able to be looked up online. I can only speak for Australia; by default it goes to next of kin, probably your mother. Proper legal wills drafted by lawyers cost several hundred dollars but should be pretty hard to challenge in court if anyone tries to do so.

 

[FuneralCry]

Being alive is very horrible. I understand that it is painful when things just get worse. I wish you the best with your plans, I hope you find peace and freedom from suffering.

 

[Samsara]

Have my SN, have Reglan, painkillers and antacids. I think I'll do it very soon, this weekend even. I hope everything goes well. At the moment I don't really feel like leaving a note. Mom is the only person I feel really bad about but she should know best why.
I know I wasn't here long, but I've been lurking for a while. It's fucked how many people are there, no matter from, who have nothing and no one. All my life I felt like an intruder, an observer, never really fitting in, the usual. Had depression and anxiety since who know when. Autism probably, too. Life completely passed me by and I wasn't even aware of it. Nothing ever changed, just gotten worse. After 32 years this is how it ends. I guess I could write a wall of text but you've all seen it a thousand times, and it's always the same.

I will post in this thread when the time comes, and try to give updates. If I miss the bus will try to report back as soon as I can.

Only issue I can think of is that I have a not insignificant amount of money in the bank, what will happen to it? Should I write a will? Is it enough if I just write on a piece of paper that I leave all my money to my brother for example?

Will be in very similar boat, sorry you're hurting so much. You might need a witness/notary for the money but I am not sure

 

[Olorin]

I'll do it on Monday
Timezone is UTC +1, if it matters

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

Have my SN, have Reglan, painkillers and antacids. I think I'll do it very soon, this weekend even. I hope everything goes well. At the moment I don't really feel like leaving a note. Mom is the only person I feel really bad about but she should know best why.
I know I wasn't here long, but I've been lurking for a while. It's fucked how many people are there, no matter from, who have nothing and no one. All my life I felt like an intruder, an observer, never really fitting in, the usual. Had depression and anxiety since who know when. Autism probably, too. Life completely passed me by and I wasn't even aware of it. Nothing ever changed, just gotten worse. After 32 years this is how it ends. I guess I could write a wall of text but you've all seen it a thousand times, and it's always the same.

I will post in this thread when the time comes, and try to give updates. If I miss the bus will try to report back as soon as I can.

Only issue I can think of is that I have a not insignificant amount of money in the bank, what will happen to it? Should I write a will? Is it enough if I just write on a piece of paper that I leave all my money to my brother for example?

I think that writing a will usually makes the process of transitioning your money and possessions a lot smoother… At least here in the United States… But I do think it otherwise goes to next of Kin either way

 

[miserableforever]

I would leave a will. Not sure if that's how it works though.

 

[Olorin]

It's noon, I'll drink that shit at midnight

 

[Olorin]

The moment is drawing close. It's 10pm. I'm not sure how I feel. Empty, defeated. It all feels very matter-of-factly.
In the end I'm not going to leave a note. Haven't written anything so far, at least. I just don't feel any need to.
Don't know what to say. Didn't do anything today, other than getting ready. Last night I watched The Fountain, one of my favourite movies, would recommend. Ironic, since it's about moving on after losing a loved one.
Gonna prepare 3 drinks. If anything goes wrong I'll report back as soon as possible.

 

[Olorin]

I drank it
feeling nauseus, heart racing

 

[Green Destiny]

I drank it
feeling nauseus, heart racing

If this is what you want I hope you find peace. And remember if you feel you want to back out there's nothing wrong with that either.

 

[Talvikki]

Are you still there?

 

[PeacefulTonic]

Damn, that was quick. Safe travels.
I hope it was quick and as comfortable as it could be

 

[Shu]

Rip..