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drag201
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- Oct 15, 2023
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I have it all. I have access to a shed with some strong thick rope and I have obsessively done research on hanging for the past months where I feel I have the knowledge to attempt and because it's whats most accessible to me. I cant bring myself to do it, but I want to so bad. I have nothing to live for, barely any important family or friends, no pets, no job, nothing. I'm so tired of waking up everyday and suicide has been the only thing on my mind for weeks and weeks on end. However, I just cannot bring myself to go and do it. I do NOT want to keep living at all but maybe im just scared of the fact that I will be the one taking my own life .. I don't know. I have thought and planned about this for so long and it's brought me peace knowing I can be put to rest one day yet I cant do it. All I do everyday is sit and rot and get drunk my life is awful. This is just a vent, everyday feels like a dead end and I'm getting cornered by the agony of life, but if anyone feels the same and is thinking about overcoming this I would love to hear your thoughts.