Venting Everyday it's getting worse

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

I regret so much that I didnt ctb 2 weeks ago. I thought somw things would get better but I was wrong. Everyday things are getting worse. My life got worse. I had a great chance to ctb but I backed out. Next time I have a chance I WON'T HESITATE A SECOND. I WON'T THINK IT TWICE. The only thing I do is make wrong decitions. I'm tired of all this. I just want to end it right now if I could. Thanks for reading. Good night to everyone.

 

[Flippy]

What's gotten worse? I remember how upset you were in your other thread. I'm sorry things have gotten worse :-(

 

[TAW122]

I'm sorry to hear about your situation and yes, things are shitty in this shitty world. I do hope you find peace when you get a chance in the future.

 

[Ghost2211]

I'm sorry things have gotten worse. If you hesitated before then perhaps you were not ready to go. It's always good to stop ctb if you don't feel comfortable with it.

 

[randomz]

I regret so much that I didnt ctb 2 weeks ago. I thought somw things would get better but I was wrong. Everyday things are getting worse. My life got worse. I had a great chance to ctb but I backed out. Next time I have a chance I WON'T HESITATE A SECOND. I WON'T THINK IT TWICE. The only thing I do is make wrong decitions. I'm tired of all this. I just want to end it right now if I could. Thanks for reading. Good night to everyone.

I feel you, I am in the same situation - giving myself just a bit more time, things getting a bit better and then BAM! plummeting back down to the depths of Depression and killer anxiety. I was on the verge of slicing my throat, over a mistake I did at work (not a big mistake, but not a small one either, and I am the only one to blame for that) just an hour ago. My self-loathing is at an all time peak right now. :D