My parents blame me for being ungrateful after my mother found my suicide note. I was talking with my friend and told him about that. And you know what? He blocked me. I got my SN and I'm thinking about ending things in the near future. Fuck this shit, I just want to die in peace.
Throughtheeglass
Some parents dont want to be the parent with a mentally ill child hence lash out and make the crisis about them. It easier to blame rather than listen. Your mum sounds like my mum.
When my mum saw my self harm scars she screamed at me and called me " Stupid" and " attention seeking " and she said"cover your arm at school because i don't want social services involved "
She was screaming the house down . She was furious.
I was 17 at the time
My mum didnt want to listen about why i self harmed.
When i went to hospital and was questioned about the scars on my arm.
She told the doctors how she works with mentally ill people and said she was shocked at my self harming. The way she was talking to the doctor she pretending to be a concerned parent
It was disgusting
Real friends don't leave thier friends when are in a crisis. A true friend is always there for you in times of difficulty.
The fact a friend blocked you when you told them your suicidal reveals thier true character . You dont need such a person like that in your life.
I told one of my close friends i was suicidal and i really helped this friend when they were having problems at university. I am black female and my friend is a black female .
My friend said my depression is because i am feminist . She went further to say depression is not real and" people in Africa dont in depression it is only a problem in the west"
My friend a couple of weeks later asked if i a ok now
I said no
She said " still you are depressed"
After graduating my friend stopped talking to me.
People get surprised when a loved one kills themselves however the whole time these were the same people who never wanted to listen when their loved ones in pain.
What annoys me is when someone kills themselves the parents go on tv and talk about their childs suicide.
All i could ask myself seeing the parents on the tv
" Did you really listen to your child all the times they were upset"
