aeri
𑁍ˡᵒᵛᵉ ˢᵗᵃʳᵛᵉᵈ ᵖʳⁱⁿᶜᵉˢˢ
- Jan 29, 2020
- 134
Every year, im having gigantic mental breakdowns during new years/Christmas. I had to ask for a sick leave because i couldn't go to work anymore. Last year i stopped going to uni at this time. The year before too.
My sick leave is ending next week. i feel like i cant return to work. im too suicidal, too stressed, not functional enough. i dont wanna return to work. i'd honestly rather die.
I think i'll attempt today. it will be the fourth time i attempt on the 2nd of January. Maybe this time i wont be scared bahaha. i know i'll get scared, do anything, cry and binge again. But i have to put an end to this misery
i do not deserve all this pain. I've fought, i've tried to be normal and to not be this piece of shit. i cant change, i will never change. i just should end it. My inner child is hurting. im hurting. My future me will be hurting. no matter how hard i try i keep on suffering. i want to put an end to that and finally find peace
My sick leave is ending next week. i feel like i cant return to work. im too suicidal, too stressed, not functional enough. i dont wanna return to work. i'd honestly rather die.
I think i'll attempt today. it will be the fourth time i attempt on the 2nd of January. Maybe this time i wont be scared bahaha. i know i'll get scared, do anything, cry and binge again. But i have to put an end to this misery
i do not deserve all this pain. I've fought, i've tried to be normal and to not be this piece of shit. i cant change, i will never change. i just should end it. My inner child is hurting. im hurting. My future me will be hurting. no matter how hard i try i keep on suffering. i want to put an end to that and finally find peace