Ever feel that mix of sadness and regret in your gut when you think of ctb, but then you remember you won’t care after your dead?

[Kramer]

It's comforting actually

 

[SN?0RN0t]

What im feeling right now

 

[Murasa]

Regardless of how you see it, it seems to have lost, if my death has a meaning for those who matter to me, I do not think I can spend my last moments in peace knowing that I am causing them harm by killing myself, if my death will not matter to anyone, simply I would sink deeper into sadness when I realize how insignificant I was.

 

[Kramer]

Regardless of how you see it, it seems to have lost, if my death has a meaning for those who matter to me, I do not think I can spend my last moments in peace knowing that I am causing them harm by killing myself, if my death will not matter to anyone, simply I would sink deeper into sadness when I realize how insignificant I was.

I don't understand what you wrote at all.

 

[winechateu]

all the time. i am currently working on emotionally detaching myself from those that i love so when it comes down to it, it wont hurt my heart as much.
yeet

 

[KleinerWolf]

I feel neutral.
It doesn't comfort me nor does it make me discontent.

it's like you have the path of life, doing whatever it is you normally do,
And then there's this walking track next to it covered with more bushes at the entrance, u could tell not many people use it,
You decide to go with that instead because the main path hasn't worked out too well.

I feel numb.
It gets old.

 

[Bull in a China shop]

Interesting to know how others think, naive as it sounds but I always thought that when it came to thoughts of ctb we would all had the same emotions and thoughts.

 

[Kramer]

Interesting to know how others think, naive as it sounds but I always thought that when it came to thoughts of ctb we would all had the same emotions and thoughts.

What did you think people would think and feel?

 

[KleinerWolf]

I don't understand what you wrote at all.

I think they were saying,

It's hard to ctb because of the damage they see themselves project on loved ones,
and hypothetically speaking, if their ctb affects no one, they feel less valued.

 

[Murasa]

I think they were saying,

It's hard to ctb because of the damage they see themselves project on loved ones,
and hypothetically speaking, if their ctb affects no one, they feel less valued.

Yes, it was a verbiage to express that, thanks for making it more understandable.

 

[Bull in a China shop]

Well I'm the total opposite, the thoughts of ctb I feel freedom and peace, the thought that I could never be raped again and noone can ever touch you physically.

 

[KleinerWolf]

Well I'm the total opposite, the thoughts of ctb I feel freedom and peace, the thought that I could never be raped again and noone can ever touch you physically.

Sorry to hear you were a victim of crime :(
I would protect you as a friend

 

[OrdinaryDay]

Yes but I always end up looping same thoughts but when it happens it makes me feel really relieved.