not_a_robot

not_a_robot

"i hope the leaving is joyful, & never to return"
May 30, 2019
2,121
This is a horrible feeling of failure for me, and explains my need to ctb perfectly.
That even in the midst of a supposed epidemic of glorious suicide drugs flooding society, I lack the social capacity to obtain them.
I want no part of a "social life", but I can't even interact competently enough to obtain the drugs to kill myself nicely, when they are supposed to be easier to buy than candy. What a fucking loser.
 
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Morphinekiss

Enlightened
Jun 8, 2019
1,207
I'll send you some in a festive piñata. Ole!

(Dear overlords of whomever that monitors everything, I'm not sharing my drugs. Call down your drones.)
 
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DyingWitsie

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May 19, 2019
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This is a horrible feeling of failure for me, and explains my need to ctb perfectly.
That even in the midst of a supposed epidemic of glorious suicide drugs flooding society, I lack the social capacity to obtain them.
I want no part of a "social life", but I can't even interact competently enough to obtain the drugs to kill myself nicely, when they are supposed to be easier to buy than candy. What a fucking loser.
I remember the first time i got off a taxi to buy meth. It was less than 10 minutes and still in highschool. You are not a loser atleast try to get "medication" with DXM at any pharmacy and then see how you feel then... plus too much will make you trip to the point where your inner suicidal demon comes out to die with no fear... That was my experience.
 
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not-2-b-the-answer

Archangel
Mar 23, 2018
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This is a horrible feeling of failure for me, and explains my need to ctb perfectly.
That even in the midst of a supposed epidemic of glorious suicide drugs flooding society, I lack the social capacity to obtain them.
I want no part of a "social life", but I can't even interact competently enough to obtain the drugs to kill myself nicely, when they are supposed to be easier to buy than candy. What a fucking loser.

If life weren't so shitty people wouldn't be using opioids. :angry:
 
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not_a_robot

not_a_robot

"i hope the leaving is joyful, & never to return"
May 30, 2019
2,121
If life weren't so shitty people wouldn't be using opioids. :angry:
Maybe. I think I would still love drugs even if my life was good. I just enjoy keeping my consciousness slightly south of sober and I hate alcohol.
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I remember the first time i got off a taxi to buy meth. It was less than 10 minutes and still in highschool. You are not a loser atleast try to get "medication" with DXM at any pharmacy and then see how you feel then... plus too much will make you trip to the point where your inner suicidal demon comes out to die with no fear... That was my experience.
lol I could write a book of just the stupid, bizarre and humiliating incidents I've gone through just trying to obtain drugs.
And only got them successfully half the time. Half the time the humiliation was all for nothing, which doubled it.
 
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irrelevant_string

Student
Jun 16, 2019
122
Eh my social skills are that of a 10 year old and I'm often told that I look like a 13 year old so you can imagine what my social interactions would look like if I had any. Not to mention that I live with my parents so ordering N is not an option either, I can't get anti emetics. I'll have to figure something out.
 
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cornflowerblue

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Feb 18, 2019
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Eh my social skills are that of a 10 year old and I'm often told that I look like a 13 year old so you can imagine what my social interactions would look like if I had any. Not to mention that I live with my parents so ordering N is not an option either, I can't get anti emetics. I'll have to figure something out.
Might as well try to work things out in the meantime while you're stuck being alive. The time will pass no matter what, so it won't hurt to try to change your circumstances.
 
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