Euphoria after attempt?

[stilhavinightmares]

Last night I overdosed on some meds, mainly Zofran. I knew it could kill me or maybe severely hurt me (doctors have said it's so dangerous but I've never experienced that at all, Zofran is like nothing to me). I tend to overdose on things as a form of self harm. I fell asleep hoping it would kill me. I woke up throughout the night and this morning. I wasn't super surprised nor was it that big of a disappointment because I have my "grand exit" ready for when I'm absolutely done.

But since I got out of bed this morning, I feel almost hypomanic. Energized, loud, good mood. Has this happened to anyone else?

It feels very similar to how it feels before you make a true attempt because you know you're about to be free.

 

[Novacaine]

I felt nothing most times when attempting and pissed off after surviving.

 

[stilhavinightmares]

I felt nothing most times when attempting and pissed off after surviving.

Me too, typically, but this one was weird. I'm not at my most depressed/suicidal so maybe that's why. I still wanted to not wake up though.