existentiallinguine
female Rust Cohle
- Feb 10, 2026
- 31
I've officially ended therapy due to my plans to CTB. I really didn't want my therapist to think she was some sort of failure, and I'm hoping that she won't hear about it, at least for a long time. I said that I just needed more help than they could give, since they didn't have availability two days a week. Really, I have no intention of getting treatment. My SN is currently in transit and once I'm able to get everything else I need for the method I don't think I have any other choice with where I am in my life but to take it. It's either that or more suffering due to my circumstances than I can handle. Even though after over ten years on and off I've personally lost faith in therapy as a solution to my mental health struggles, she is a really nice lady and I can't imagine how painful it is to lose a client you've been trying to save like that. I know that if I wasn't paying that things would be different, but she pulled strings to work within the parameters of my insurance and give me a reasonable price. I really appreciated that and it meant a lot to me last Summer when I was desperate for help after experiencing SA by my then partner. It's one of the very few acts of kindness I've ever experienced surrounding being assaulted, so honestly I hope she doesn't find out that I couldn't take the pressure of what happened. Anyway, that's all I have to say.
