oxymoron
Arcanist
- Jul 18, 2019
- 439
What exactly can you do to end suffering? I've tried to forget everything and start from scratch again but it just doesn't work. The past just won't let me move on.
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hellboy
- Jul 21, 2019
- 21
I have the luxury of forgetting most of my past, but I achieved that via starving so I don't necessarily condone it. Have you tried therapy?
IMALB
Member
- May 21, 2019
- 20
oxymoron
Arcanist
- Jul 18, 2019
- 439
No. It's costly and I don't think it's going to work on me. I've lost my will to live. What kind of therapy can bring it back?
I gave up on my life 9 months back. Idk why it's still here.
cryptic_cynic
Degenerate
- Jul 8, 2019
- 129
Sometimes I wish I could completely forget the past, but at the same time I find that kind of creepy, and I don't even know that erasing my memory would alleviate my hatred and disgust for living anyway.Therapy has never helped me. And you cannot tell them you are wanting to leave the planet... you could find yourself being locked up on a psych ward.
But, just because therapy never helped me doesn't mean it might not help someone else.
namemanthedeadman
Still Breathing :(
- Jul 28, 2018
- 30
True! I feel like even if I forgot everything that led up to this feeling of wanting to ctb, new reasons would just weasel themselves into my life putting me right back where I started, it feels like it comes from inside more than anything that affects me outside.
oxymoron
Arcanist
- Jul 18, 2019
- 439
Hmm. Living life one shitty day at a time.Exactly.... it has no meaning whatsoever
I do not find meaning in anything anymore.... been there, done that....it is all so redundant
oxymoron
Arcanist
- Jul 18, 2019
- 439
I have been like this for a few years now.
And with each passing year I just get yo where I want to leave this world more and more. Stop the merrygoround.... let me off. I have seen enough of this crazy cruel world and enough of my crappy life.
If only I had the courage to make another attempt....Last edited:
oxymoron
Arcanist
- Jul 18, 2019
- 439
Damn. I've been like this since the last 10 months and I feel I've seen enough already. Why though? Why you and why me?
Well, there are many reasons and I think some of us are not cut out for this world. We are sensitive... really see the world for what it is, ect... What are your thoughts?
oxymoron
Arcanist
- Jul 18, 2019
- 439
Some of us don't value our lives. I feel I didn't and I still don't. I've suffered because of it.
Yes, I agree....we do not value our lives. I guess apathy is the word.... don't care about anything in this world...I had a counselor tell me that she was "hearing a lot of apathy" when talking to me.Similar threads
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