Emotions Suck

[evilnkaa]

I feel like I've been here. I feel like no matter how much I try and avoid loneliness and sadness I can never get away. I'm in love with everyone. yet no one is in love with me. I'm so exhausted of myself and the person I became he doesn't even love me yet i sit here head over heels. He doesn't even pay any attention and yet I'm on the ground like a puppy whimpering for him. I'm such an ick to people. I'm annoying, gross, my voice sounds fat, im just empty space. I want to be something something for him ive been basically chasing after this man but I guess i look weird. Im exhausted of the excuse of we are friends when i sit and send him nudes and all these photos, hours on the phone, sleep calls, arguments where i've sat there and listened to him upset at completely nothing. I love this man but he doesn't love me.

 

[ShatteredSerenity]

Love causes so much pain. I spent 20 years loving and adoring my wife, then she unceremoniously served me divorce papers without warnining one day. She hasn't even told me why. She shredded my heart to pieces. We had so much going on together, and she had been so loving and caring until she abruptly pulled the plug on our relationship. So even when you find love it can vanish in an instant. It just makes me hate life, why does it have to be so cruel with our hearts?

 

[evilnkaa]

Love causes so much pain. I spent 20 years loving and adoring my wife, then she unceremoniously served me divorce papers without warnining one day. She hasn't even told me why. She shredded my heart to pieces. We had so much going on together, and she had been so loving and caring until she abruptly pulled the plug on our relationship. So even when you find love it can vanish in an instant. It just makes me hate life, why does it have to be so cruel with our hearts?

I understand this so well. I give my all for men. And I mean everything,,, if I had to give my blood,skin,flesh and even my last breath I would. Without a doubt. But for me I don't get that love ever. I love this man dearly we have been through so much and I just got out of a relationship with someone else although I get taking things slow I'm just getting so many different signals and I overthink a lot. My brain i so powerful and in my head he just told me im rushing things and its a lot for him but in my ear everyone tells me how he's only saying that because he's not interested so I have been thinking he in fact doesn't feel any feelings towards me and I just look insane chasing air. I'm just kinda at a stance still I wanna give up love completely.