Venting emotions fluctuating

[doloris988]

sometimes it feels like i'm so functional and i can be so productive and then i break down and i feel such a wide range of emotions i hurt myself i make brash decisions and then i can jump to being completely depressed and not wanting to move or get out of bed for days it feels so disabling because i cant plan for anything

 

[Roseate]

Have you seen a therapist for that? That sounds exhausting

 

[doloris988]

Have you seen a therapist for that? That sounds exhausting

i tried therapy back in early 2024 and the experience was overall okay, but i stopped cause of a mix of not really trusting them and the feelings of being too depressed or feeling too functional for therapy made it really hard to find a reason to keep going

 

[Roseate]

i tried therapy back in early 2024 and the experience was overall okay, but i stopped cause of a mix of not really trusting them and the feelings of being too depressed or feeling too functional for therapy made it really hard to find a reason to keep going

I get what you mean having to wake up to see them can be exhausting when you're actively experiencing a depression episode but if you can afford it, it wouldn't hurt to try it again you know? You can even do it online or over the phone.

 

[Sphinxi]

Does it make you feel like a slave to your mental state? That's how I usually describe it. I have bipolar disorder, mood swings are very debilitating and I'm sorry that you have them as well. It's so hard to just live life, and it's hard to maintain relationships with most people.

 

[InevitableDeath]

Have you seen a therapist for that? That sounds exhausting

sorry didnt mean to like that. the opposite in fact. Its a flip response for a suicide site and therapists are almost all useless.

 

[Roseate]

sorry didnt mean to like that. the opposite in fact. Its a flip response for a suicide site and therapists are almost all useless.

What do you mean?

 

[doloris988]

Does it make you feel like a slave to your mental state? That's how I usually describe it. I have bipolar disorder, mood swings are very debilitating and I'm sorry that you have them as well. It's so hard to just live life, and it's hard to maintain relationships with most people.

i've never really thought of myself of something like that. i guess i like to think that even though i make shitty decisions under my emotions they're still my decisions and even though i made the wrong choice, it was still my choice at the end of the day. i think it gives me some kind of sense of control. it is so hard to maintain relationships with people, and just to live. thank you for being so empathetic

I get what you mean having to wake up to see them can be exhausting when you're actively experiencing a depression episode but if you can afford it, it wouldn't hurt to try it again you know? You can even do it online or over the phone.

i'm really scared, because last time things got this bad i worried my parents sick to the point where my mom will periodically just ask if i'm happy or if theres anything wrong and i don't want to put them through that again, not only for them but because when they get worried like that they start acting brash, stop listening to what i'm saying and start forcing me to do stuff
i think i'm probably just a bad daughter for avoiding that conflict with them as a whole, but i'm just too afraid to go through that again and i know its selfish