Nephis
“Death should take me while I am in the mood.”
- Sep 3, 2018
- 280
If they were to get in my way was the answer that went through my head so yes?
Nephis
“Death should take me while I am in the mood.”
- Sep 3, 2018
- 280
I think your still thinking of a psychopath i do things that benefit me hurting people needlessly could land me into problems i don't want last thing i need is to be put in the same room with a therapist
Nephis
“Death should take me while I am in the mood.”
- Sep 3, 2018
- 280
Whatever would benefit me in the end after all i'm trying not to be put into a mental hospital
Pointlessabyss
Impulse will takeover one day...
- Sep 17, 2018
- 294
Hey, new here but I can relate to so much of what your saying! I have nothing wrong in my life as far as I can tell, I feel emotionless and get little to no satisfaction out of life anymore. Hence my being here to get the knowledge and resources to end it as peacefully as possible.
There's a few websites out there called self/modern awakening which I use to read a lot as it relates so much to my feelings of the pointless existence! Which I had accepted all them years ago.
I think a lot of people go through that stage but can ignore it / place a purpose on themselves to live.
I don't think you ll turn into a psychopath or anything as long as you still have morals and can tell between what's wrong and right. You ll just exsist with the acceptance and you ll either struggle on like I have for the last 8 years, but everyone has a breaking point!
Just thought I'd let you know your not alone with your way of thinking!
Nephis
“Death should take me while I am in the mood.”
- Sep 3, 2018
- 280
Nephis
“Death should take me while I am in the mood.”
- Sep 3, 2018
- 280
Isn't that just self-sacrificing? you don't care about what happens to yourself but you do for other's and you would even hurt your-self even if it meant helping someone else out i believe that's the correct definition that i found
Caustic Cardinals
Enlightened
- Sep 1, 2018
- 1,339
We're all bugs now,
On the so called Humon show,
screaming dieing .
wanna be vultures lapping at blood stains on the walls.
On the so called Humon show,
screaming dieing .
wanna be vultures lapping at blood stains on the walls.
Nephis
“Death should take me while I am in the mood.”
- Sep 3, 2018
- 280
Damn I wish I was a sociopath/psychopath. My anxiety tortures me. I care more about what others think of me than If I'm going to eat or not this month. I feel like being stuck in a reality show in which I'm forced to play the role of the biggest loser. My only choice is self termination at this point.
Lucky motherfuckers. My greatest winning is surviving a day at school without having anyone bother me.
RM5998
Sack of Meat
- Sep 3, 2018
- 2,202
Well, the armchair diagnosis would be ASPD, but it's not exactly reasonable to do that, since I'm not a psychiatrist, haven't read the DSM-V and haven't met you in person.
To some extent, I do feel that myself, the numbing of some of my emotions over time. I know I have them, they've just become somewhat inaccessible.
To some extent, I do feel that myself, the numbing of some of my emotions over time. I know I have them, they've just become somewhat inaccessible.
throwaway123
Hell0
- Aug 5, 2018
- 1,446
I try to supress all my emotions as much as possible. Emotions just don't help. This numbing process has left me quite emotionless you could say. It's not that I am unable to feel compassion it's more that I just don't care. Why would I? There is no meaning to life and emotions are not comparable to the laws of physics. You can die tomorrow and the sun will still shine, the earth will continue spinning just like people will continue with their lives. I also feel that to CTB you have to become emotionless in some sort of way.
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I sometimes become so hollow that I don't feel anything and I don't care about my supposed friends or loved ones. I dissociate every now and then, too. I realize that this state is troubling for majority of people experiencing it, but I don't feel it unpleasant whatsoever. Personally, I find it really soothing. It feels good not to give a fuck. By the way, I find implying that you may be a psychopath to be completely inaccurate. I think that a psychopath wouldn't be noble enough to consider whether his actions will impact other people.
Caustic Cardinals
Enlightened
- Sep 1, 2018
- 1,339
Nephis
“Death should take me while I am in the mood.”
- Sep 3, 2018
- 280
Thus far being emotionless is some what strange to say the least it's like you can never really understand what a person is thinking when they act on emotions i can only guess based upon what people say or an opinion on it this is even more hard to understand if you like me and have no empathy towards humans
Mostly just angry and bitter these days. A little nervous too because I am committed to killing myself now and I have been a complete shut-in (besides work) for the past 2 months. I just know that this is a path that will kill my social life and any chance at having a girlfriend, future, or anything else in life completely. But it is what I genuinely want so I guess it gives me some sort of a feeling of confidence or something.
Pk95
Member
- Jul 26, 2018
- 49
I became kind of emotionless.. after I went through a phase of thinking , analysing about my life.. (my next step). I became completely indifferent to everything..Just faking it till the point so that no one discovers. But, when we co-exist with more people, it require more efforts to hide your pain. People are just enjoying life...When they crack a joke, you don't respond., they get suspicious after some time.. happened with me. So, I used to act that I'm completely fine,but it drains a lot of energy.So, as for me , I will not fake it for long. Hoping to ctb soon.
