Venting eating

[verminnnn]

i loved food during my life before. now i'm constantly sick, and i find no pleasure in it. i eat so that my vision doesn't get so blurry i can't see, no more than that, and it can't be anything special because i don't deserve to enjoy it. i'm posting this because i can feel the will to keep going leaving my body. i've lost a lot of weight over the last few weeks, and my head constantly hurts. my hair used to be lovely and shiny and is now a lank weight dragging me backwards. what's the point to any of this?