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darkdarkdark
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- Feb 8, 2023
- 42
I talked with one of my few friends whom I met in gaming.
And he told me how others were pissed off at how I behaved.
He only mentioned one, but I suspected there are more of those who had unpleasant experiences because of me.
I was trying to forget how awful person I am but everytime I try to give myself a second chance, something pops up.
I have done other horrible things in life as well.
I should have killed myself when I had the chance.
I will never be forgiven. I suppose.
I hope when I die, it gives relief to those whom I have hurt.
I am already a big burden to the ones that I love.
I know that I have to face myself and correct and change my behaviors.
But I'm too scared.
I am scared to look at what's inside of me.
Not one day goes by without self-hating.
i just need to rest. Forever.
And he told me how others were pissed off at how I behaved.
He only mentioned one, but I suspected there are more of those who had unpleasant experiences because of me.
I was trying to forget how awful person I am but everytime I try to give myself a second chance, something pops up.
I have done other horrible things in life as well.
I should have killed myself when I had the chance.
I will never be forgiven. I suppose.
I hope when I die, it gives relief to those whom I have hurt.
I am already a big burden to the ones that I love.
I know that I have to face myself and correct and change my behaviors.
But I'm too scared.
I am scared to look at what's inside of me.
Not one day goes by without self-hating.
i just need to rest. Forever.