Dying

[itsgone2]

I know this isn't the first time it's been brought up, but how do you plan on actually going through with it?

I have every reason the world to go through with it right now. I could FSH and I would have plenty of time to hang there and no one bother my body.

But I just lay here in bed. How am I supposed to do this thing that I need to do?

 

[witchcraft]

As much as I want to die, I won't pretend I'm not scared.

It's agonizing wanting to die so bad and not being able to follow-up on it. Because then It's just: suffer.

So I am wondering the same thing. How. I'm really leaning towards a shotgun.

 

[itsgone2]

I wish one of us could answer the question. I can't either.
My entire life has been a mistake. It sucks but I just need to end it. And I don't know how to.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I have (now expired) SN, meto, everything else practical- plastic sheeting, weighing scales, measuring shot etc.ready in a box to use. I would ideally want to have back up methods prepared too.

Whether I will have the guts to do it one day is something else. There's a whole bunch of other stuff I'd need to do in preperation though. Regarding notes, bills, paperwork, tidying etc.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'd be long gone if I had a peaceful, guaranteed method so finally I can be free from this torturous, dreadful and deeply undesirable existence that just causes all this harm and suffering and I always suffer so much from being so cruelly denied that, to me only non-existence is positive, I'd just never wish for the suffering, torture and cruelty of existing and it's so terrible how this existence was imposed.