
ClairyFairy
Wizard
- Jan 22, 2021
- 622
I've got a f2f appointment tomorrow and she's going to need to touch my neck and my chest and my back. I haven't had anyone near me like that for over a year. I feel like I'm losing the plot already. What if I hit her or freak out or something. I'm freaking out already. I've got to do it I'm really unwell I just don't think I can have someone in such close proximity to me trying to touch me. I don't know whats wrong with me. Everything is messing with my head. I don't feel like a person. I know I don't matter it feels awkward for nothing. If I have got something wrong with me I'd rather them find it too late anyway. I reckon si gets forced on you for other people if it's physical and they are ruthless about fighting that shit. I don't want to go the surgery but the pain is unbearable. Fml