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lastch
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- Oct 2, 2024
- 7
Just dropped out of college. Everyday I was in there I was constantly feeling overwhelmed and struggled to get up every morning and cried everyday when I got home. I had been thinking about doing it for a while and made the final decision last night. I couldn't see myself being able to complete the required hours and my ptsd was prevalent and my intrusive thoughts and memories wouldn't stop.
I am currently crippled with anxiety and a feeling that I made the wrong decision. I try to keep reminding myself that I wasn't able for it and my mental health is in too bad of a state to continue on. I have not been the same since an inpatient psych ward stay and I'm trying to come to terms with the fact that the old me is gone. The old me that enjoyed college and had a laugh and joke with friends or went to the pub after. The feelings of regret for dropping out of college that I have are actually feelings of grief of what could have been.
I am currently crippled with anxiety and a feeling that I made the wrong decision. I try to keep reminding myself that I wasn't able for it and my mental health is in too bad of a state to continue on. I have not been the same since an inpatient psych ward stay and I'm trying to come to terms with the fact that the old me is gone. The old me that enjoyed college and had a laugh and joke with friends or went to the pub after. The feelings of regret for dropping out of college that I have are actually feelings of grief of what could have been.