W3akCr3atur3
Empty and hollow
- Aug 3, 2020
- 357
For probably around 2 years now I barely feel anything in real life. I have almost no emotions left except social awkwardness and self hatred. But in dreams I still can feel a lot. Sometimes I feel actually happy. I have strong emotions such as wonderment, happiness, delight. Often times I even cried after waking up realizing it was only a dream. I often wish I could live in some of my dreams forever. I feel so empty irl. Nothing ever feels real. Even dreams feels more real at this point. I think ctb for me is the way to have an eternal dream.