As kid I was obnoxiously ambitious, wanted silicon valley type job.
Them half my life crumbled but with some moderste ambition remaining I eventyallyvwent to a business school.
Rinse and repeat. I try to get into mental health work. I got the crazy idea that I can help everyone with similar experiences, & more given my new open mind.. But the extreme socising and changing nappies was insane. Rince, repeat.
Wanted to get back into programming, take it slow and eady but time at home since by now Im a total fuck up. Headaches, bad vision, finding air and negotiating my pay for almost every task, responding in mihutes to texs and phones to keep up with society's demads and competition from big busineses.
Its surprising how much damage is done by going though chronic and/or acute stress,especially repeated, extended periods of isokation. You forget how to even talk, let alone fit in
Not seen much hope for life since then since I'm agoraphobia etc etc etc