drastic things you've done to try and give you an inch of feeling?

[charlavail]

Maybe this is the bipolar 2 in me, but my apartment is just a huge reminder of pain and depression so I've decided even though it's a rental I'm painting some of the walls, getting rid of a lot of furniture, rearranging things. I also already put down an adoption deposit on a puppy earlier this month that I will be coming mid-april. It might all be too much for somone who is depressed. But idk it feels like it's either I fucking change everything or I keep SH and writing more suicide notes. Oh and i have another tattoo booked for this friday.

Anyone else do drastic things in their life to try and feel better? or hopeful? or just feel anything at all?

 

[TheCavernousDeep.]

I used to impulsively reread old journals and Reddit posts from the lead up and aftermath of a pretty brutal trauma in my life. I don't do it anymore but it was definitely really fucked.