Only you can dispel your doubts on this topic.
Unfortunately, we cannot help and we should not.
Think about it and make a decision that you will regret the least, or not at all.
By the way, I have also had situations where I seriously considered the last step.
My method is SN, so I have been there a few times during the fast.
But my doubts always won.
So, I understand that you cannot decide on a specific day. It is normal.