Doubts about fentanyl and a final note

[leuzenstraat]

I've acquired 0,5g of fentanyl. A good friend of mine, who is sadly an opioid user, helped me out. The thing is that I refuse to inject it, and most likely I will take it in orally, although the low bioavailability it entails deters me. However, this night I will take the decision either way.

It might not leave any traces, because it's metabolized quickly. In that case, I would not write a note, because I prefer my alleged ones to think I died a natural way, so the guilt and grief don't overwhelm them. Unfortunately, I don't know if it's feasible. So, I would appreciate it if you could advice me when it comes to the writing of the note. And to inform me of what is expectable to happen once I am not here (like, does the police ask any questions, are colleagues from college quickly informed?...) Anything is of interest.

In addition, this experience of mine might elucidate some of you. For example, I can talk about my attempt with heroin, which obviously failed since I am typing now. I took 1 gram, and when I started snorting it, I realized it couldn't be possible, so I drank it. It didn't work. And I have no patience for a second unsuccessful attempt.

For what it's worth, I don't take drugs, so I have no tolerance nor I had it at my first attempt

 

[At_The_End]

Hey there.. welcome.
I like your plan to CTB and make it look natural. I've been searching for ways to do this too... Accident, ect. Hope to find a good way so that I too can CTB w/o the family / friends burdened with the pain of intentional. With regards to what happens after we are gone... depends on a lot of thing... There is no one plan for all. I would suggest that an autopsy will be conducted to determine cause of death. This is what happens in my town. When my son died, they did an autopsy because he was in his 20's and very healthy. It F does metabolize quickly, that might be a good solution.. I don't know. I suspect a blood test would show it simply because once you are gone, the meta slows and stops.... I really don't know. I'll follow your posts to see if you find a good solution. I wish you the best and hope you find the peace you are searching for... I'm sure you will. Take care...

 

[leuzenstraat]

Hey there.. welcome.
I like your plan to CTB and make it look natural. I've been searching for ways to do this too... Accident, ect. Hope to find a good way so that I too can CTB w/o the family / friends burdened with the pain of intentional. With regards to what happens after we are gone... depends on a lot of thing... There is no one plan for all. I would suggest that an autopsy will be conducted to determine cause of death. This is what happens in my town. When my son died, they did an autopsy because he was in his 20's and very healthy. It F does metabolize quickly, that might be a good solution.. I don't know. I suspect a blood test would show it simply because once you are gone, the meta slows and stops.... I really don't know. I'll follow your posts to see if you find a good solution. I wish you the best and hope you find the peace you are searching for... I'm sure you will. Take care...

First of all, my condolences. I hope you are at ease.

Of course you can see my posts, although most likely there will be no more by tomorrow. I, since a teenager (now I am 22) wanted to leave inadvertently. Everyone here knows about grief, so we try to spare it to the others. However, choosing fentanyl has nothing to do with it but rather with its effectiveness. It's a non-traumatic way to go.

I feel obliged to talk with you about your current state. If there's anything I can help, let me know. Take a lot of care please