RedPanda
One day we shall be free from this mortal coil.
- Jul 16, 2019
- 237
Phew, it seems like endless distractions and experiences have truly been keeping my brain preoccupied. I've been overdosing on dopamine. Traveling everywhere, doing daring adrenaline activities, it's keeping me distracted.
What is strange is that I'm actually a functioning human-being when I'm distracted BUT boy oh boy, once u get off the bullet train of dopamine fixes you come crashing down hard, that's why I'm posting on here again.
It's true, the thoughts of suicide will NEVER EVER go away. Once I snap back to reality and realize that I'm still alive, that is when I get depressed and want to end it. Nothing i've ever done actually matters. We don't matter, YOU don't even matter. Life is pointless but distractions keep me going, for now.
Dopamine is one hell of a drug.
What is strange is that I'm actually a functioning human-being when I'm distracted BUT boy oh boy, once u get off the bullet train of dopamine fixes you come crashing down hard, that's why I'm posting on here again.
It's true, the thoughts of suicide will NEVER EVER go away. Once I snap back to reality and realize that I'm still alive, that is when I get depressed and want to end it. Nothing i've ever done actually matters. We don't matter, YOU don't even matter. Life is pointless but distractions keep me going, for now.
Dopamine is one hell of a drug.