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WhatMightHaveBeen
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- Sep 16, 2024
- 40
My hopeless financial and existential situations haven't improved and are, in fact, getting worse, but I just don't feel like CTB anymore. I don't even feel like "going to sleep and just never waking up." It's freaking me out and I'm feeling frantic. Don't want to face life, but afraid to die.
Maybe I need Russia to invade the U.S. or another NATO country or China to invade Taiwan or some other blatant WW3 event to push me over the edge. Honestly, I think if I could have some overt move like that happen, I'd have the courage to escape my family and attempt to buy opioids on the street, guaranteeing eviction and homelessness, and risking arrest. For now I'm just a coward in limbo.
Maybe I need Russia to invade the U.S. or another NATO country or China to invade Taiwan or some other blatant WW3 event to push me over the edge. Honestly, I think if I could have some overt move like that happen, I'd have the courage to escape my family and attempt to buy opioids on the street, guaranteeing eviction and homelessness, and risking arrest. For now I'm just a coward in limbo.