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toolatebluesky
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- Feb 16, 2024
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Last friday I was supposed to try ctb by CO, but I got scared and couldn't do it. Last year I tried CO too, but the smell of smoke was so strong that I panicked because I didn't feel I was dying fast enough. That time I didn't do enough research to get scared before doing it, but last friday all I could think of was bad scenarios.
When I was 18 I tried to kms by taking pills. Lots of them. I went to sleep and woke up vomiting. I was so sick that I vomited blood. I didn't go to the hospital, and to this day I can't take pills because my body just reject them. When I was 23 I tried again by asphyxia and I failed.
Now I'm thinking about jumping, but I don't know where, and also I'm afraid that is not gonna work because I really have bad luck.
I'm so sick of this life and I don't know how to die. I'm in so much mental pain and I feel no one gets me. I just can't function like a normal person. I'm so tired, guys. So fucking tired.
When I was 18 I tried to kms by taking pills. Lots of them. I went to sleep and woke up vomiting. I was so sick that I vomited blood. I didn't go to the hospital, and to this day I can't take pills because my body just reject them. When I was 23 I tried again by asphyxia and I failed.
Now I'm thinking about jumping, but I don't know where, and also I'm afraid that is not gonna work because I really have bad luck.
I'm so sick of this life and I don't know how to die. I'm in so much mental pain and I feel no one gets me. I just can't function like a normal person. I'm so tired, guys. So fucking tired.