Don't kno what I'm living for. Just kno I can't kill myself.

[Freedombus'25]

I'm not really living for much or tryna live much tbh. Well I thought I was trying and I probably am but I feel very empty/nothing.

I'm too.. like its just a lot to kill myself so I don't ever see it being possible but I already feel dead inside. Just can't complete it physically or whatever..


I dunno what to do woth this revelation tbh. But I get it. I'm over living in this world. I never feel respected or cherished or cared about. Nothing gives me much joy anymore and if it does it takes A LOT of effort and shit to get there... so it's not very joyful.

I just kinda give up. I didn't really intend to but the real reveals itself after awhile.

I think that's why I'm kinda dreading the warm weather/spring. Just feels like more unnecessary exposure. I like hiding away in clothes during winter....

 

[.............]

Well as much as people want it, suicide can be a legitimately jarring experience that understandably people would put off. Killing yourself IS a lot since as much as being drenched in misery blows, there's something too much about losing consciousness entirely for everyone. I'm sorry that you've gotten to the point that you've given up and I hope things get better for you somehow.

 

[Baatz]

I think that's why I'm kinda dreading the warm weather/spring. Just feels like more unnecessary exposure. I like hiding away in clothes during winter....

I get this, 100%.

 

[rationaltake]

I get this, 100%.

Me too.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that you are in this situation. I know that it is awful being trapped in a life of misery and suffering. I have never wanted to live but yet I am still here as it is so difficult to exit. I wish there was a way to just fall asleep and never wake up. I also dislike the warm weather, it makes me feel worse and it is just so uncomfortable. I wish you the best.