Discussion Does your living environment portray your mental state accurately?

[Forever Sleep]

Mine does. It's disgusting. Everything I can get away with neglecting without becoming ill, I have. So much is broken that I can't be bothered or, don't want the embarassment of getting someone coming in to fix. I imagine prison facilities are better than mine! There again, if something of mine looks like it will become an inconvenience to neighbours, I'll do something about it.

It just feels like a representation of my ridiculous life. I'll let it all fall apart until it becomes an inconvenience to others. That effectively feels like the reason I haven't killed myself already. Because it would inconvenience others.

 

[Irisse]

Yup. My studio appartment is full of piles of clothing and generally disgusting. It's in a building that honestly feels like a front for drug dealers. Half of the damn building is in ruins. I also had mice, whether or not I was careful about cleaning. But the landlord is a nice man and it's relatively cheap so there's that.

 

[_Gollum_]

I guess so. My place is very clean and tidy, and I take care to organize things in a specific fashion (for example, when I fold my cloths, they have to go in a certain order). But it's also quite empty. I don't even have a couch. I pretty much just have my two desks in my living room (one for work and one for my PC), some gym equipment (including the benches which I use as chairs for my desks), and a storage cabinet.

I haven't really gone through an effort to make my place "my own." I haven't made it cozy. I haven't filled it with life. I often think it looks more like a laboratory or a hotel room than a lived-in apartment. And I guess it's true that that is a reflection of my mental state: put together on the surface, but empty and lifeless on the inside.

 

[Namelesa]

My room is very messy and a bit dirty in some places with the amount of dust there is in some places. Defintety somewhat accurate of me with me being a very emotional person. I often pile up clothes and my bed is never made and plushies get messed up a lot of the time. tho I prefer it is this way. Whenever I have tidied my room, I just feel uncomfortable with the end result as the room feels more empty and have more space which I less like as I feel more vulnerable and that I prefer more closed spaces. Maybe this just relates to that whenever I try to do something to get "better" it doesn't really help that much and sometimes make things worse.

 

[cemeteryismyhome]

No, because I have no control over it. I'm constantly cleaning up after others but it's still a mess because no one else cares. And how things are arranged and somewhat-decorated... I have no say. I sometimes feel like I want to go home but I'm already home. So I guess maybe it really does reflect my state of mind because I essentially don't really exist.

 

[Lady_V]

Yes. I clean my room multiple times a week but I trash it in a matter of hours. It reflects my life and how I try to get my shit together but fall apart quickly every day with my rapid mood changes.
Even when my floor and bed are clean, my shelves are still cluttered, so it shows my baseline dysfunction.