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DiscussionDoes life keep getting worse for you?
Thread starterHadItAll
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Life has always found new and painful ways to make my life worse day by day. Even when something good happens I can always count on that good thing eventually turning bad or leaving to make me feel infinitely worse for causing it.
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letmegetout, Deleted member 65988, mensablonde1955 and 4 others
Was about to vote no, as nothing is really changing at all. Then it occurred to me that really means getting worse as well - piling up days behind you without any progress toward getting better is probably the most common form of 'life getting worse'.
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Forever Sleep, mensablonde1955, charon and 1 other person
I go through cycles, really. I'm usually depressed for a couple of months, then I do well because I find something new to latch onto, then I get bored of it and become depressed again, and so on... not sure how I can break this cycle if at all. But life isn't getting worse. I've been able to identify patterns/things that set me off and deal with them better every time at least.
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PaxAmerica, hopelessdreams, TapeMachine and 1 other person
We are condemned to eternal suffering. Just when we think we reached the light at the end of the dark tunnel, there's a pit we fall into and start all over again
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mensablonde1955, PaxAmerica and HadItAll
yes. it feels narcissistic and indicative of main character syndrome to say this, but my whole life it's really felt like the moment i start wanting, i get thrown backwards. by wanting, i mean that very broadly; i just feel like any little glimmer that could be confused for lust for life gets snuffed out with quickness.
new job i was excited for after multiple years of on and off squatting and continuous unemployment? sorry, your workplace is physically unsafe and your boss is abusive! small concert/etc you wanted to go to and could afford? it's cancelled and we're gonna go ahead and kill your cat too, also here's a new mental illness you didn't know you had.
i mean, I guess probably over half the population has extremely rotten luck, the phrase 'one thing after the other' doesn't exist for no reason, i just don't feel like i was ever emotionally or socially equipped for it.
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mensablonde1955, LittleJem and HadItAll
Yes, because as time goes on I'm feeling more and more tired of being here. Existing only gets worse as time passes by and I'm hoping that something doesn't happen to make my existence drastically more unbearable.
The existence of life disgusts me as we exist in this world where there is no limit as to how much we can end up being tortured, this is why I view nonexistence as always being the preferable option. There is just simply no relief from suffering in this hellish world and the fact remains that as humans we are all just destined to get old and deteriorate from age and such a thing sounds so horrific to me, the thought of reaching that point is unbearable.
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YungWetto, mensablonde1955, hellispink and 2 others
Yes, other than about a 6 month period since, the last 3-4 years have been absolutely awful. I have made some of the worst decisions that have affected many people I love. They've forgiven me but iam unable to forgive myself. Now my issues are so big the only option I have other that complete disaster is ctb
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mensablonde1955, PaxAmerica and HadItAll
It has its ups and downs. It's all up to chance, sadly. Most years are dull, boring and depressing. 2 periods so far I've been lucky and found a friend/friend group at the right time where I'm able to mask my inadequacies sufficiently enough to have a decent social life. Inevitably, the energy to mask runs out and I must go through the phase of losing all I've worked for during them. Friendships, education has been ruined, social capital, etc.
Yes, my mental health has been degrading and more pressure on my physical condition. My family relationships are getting more strained because they are annoyed I'm not improving (as if that's under my control). I'm getting more and more frustrated that I haven't gotten past SI and just done it already. I hate getting to the end of the day and thinking this is not my last day I have to do this again tomorrow. I know I'm not going to last that's for sure.
It's certainly changing. I think its hard to judge whether it's getting better or worse overall because its changed so much, some things are definitely better than a few years ago but some new problems have come up that I wasn't having to deal with back then. People say I've come so far and yes I can see I have from their perspective, but then again I haven't been completely honest with them either and sometimes I find if I'm more Suicidal I will do more and take more chances in a positive way because I'll think fuck it, if it doesn't work it won't matter soon anyway.
I had a week or two off depression after LSD and now it's pretty back. Every day cry all dsy, SI, can't get good drugs. Got ditched (again) and evicted (again) and now back to the pit of mental illness.
Everyday i wish i could cut my throat or blow my head up. It is unbearable. It gets worse each minute of this existence. Never think it cant be worse cause it will get lot worse
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mensablonde1955, CantWait2D1E and HadItAll
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