Does it makes you feel more comfortable knowing you are not alone suffering?

[MiraiShisen]

I apologise for my enligsh in advance

I have not been outside of my home more than year, I have serious health issues and I will probably leave it only when I will be dead, thats the situation I am currently facing.I sufferend enough of pain and struggle, I had to give up my goals and my dreams,and slowly watched how my whole world crumbled before me while I have been able to observe others to thrive, achieving their goals, living their best moments and I just cant take it anymore. I just suffer in silence, I have not talk to anyone outside my family few years, my social skills are at zero. People are social creatures after all and I dont even have this basic fundamental need, if there have not been internet, music and games where I just escape from this reality then I would lose all my remaining sanity.

So only option left to me is to make my suffering easier or to seek some comfort in this...so I was trying to convince myself with reasons why this is happening to me, like karma or so I choosed this life to learn something etc.. but even if this is true wich I will never have proof of, it does not make my suffering easier, I will lose my life in the end and it does not provide anything than just theories. I found that knowing I am not alone in this is somehow the only (or one of fews) option left to me to make me feel a little better, but I dont feel "better" like I am happy or something when I know about suffering of someone else but I feel somehow relieved, even fictional characters have this effect on me.. like Its someone whom I can identify with. For example Chester Benington, I am certailnly not happy because he suffered but I know that he had it hard too and I feel connected, my two classmates from elementary school CTB themselves and again I am not happy in fact I feel sad but in the other hand I feel better that I am not alone in this reality.

Do you feel same as I do or its just byproduct of my non existent life full of suffering ? At this point I am so disconnected I dont even know if this is normal, I can indentify with anime characters, movie characters, real people that are famous or with few people that I know of from real world.

Sometimes I wish I had option to just snap my fingers and disappear for eternity like thanos did, I am just afraid of dying and In fact I dont even want to die in first place but I am so cornered by conditions of my life that even suicide seems to be best option and thats fcked up to say.

 

[SilentSadness]

You're still alone in suffering if no one is there with you. For me, I couldn't feel more alone. Also, I'm very uncomfortable all the time. It's very unfortunate that you have such a bad situation.

 

[abchia]

I don't find comfort in knowing that other people suffer too. I might feel a little more understood/heard, but it doesn't make me feel better. If anything it makes me hate this world even more because other people don't deserve this pain.

 

[SMmetalhead36]

I hear that "you're not alone others face the same" phrase, it does not bring me comfort because I don't wish any of what I have faced or am facing right now on anyone. For some, it may help in that moment to be able to relate and have someone who understands you.

You're still alone in suffering if no one is there with you. For me, I couldn't feel more alone. Also, I'm very uncomfortable all the time. It's very unfortunate that you have such a bad situation.

Agreed!

 

[Hollowman]

No

 

[lizzywizzy09]

No. My condition is rare so even here I feel very isolated.

 

[FuneralCry]

No, there could never be any comfort to be found in suffering, all of which is completely unnecessary and serves no function but to torment existing beings in the first place. I find it so incredibly hellish how existing beings suffer so immensely with no limit as to how much they can suffer, being aware of how much of a harmful abomination existence truly is just makes me wish for the peace of death even more.

I don't want to suffer in any way rather I just wish to be unaware for all eternity, the fact that life even exists at all really is the most terrible tragedy to me. It terrifies me how one can suffer so unbearably yet not die, I'd always prefer to not exist than to suffer in this existence where there is endless potential for such immense harm and cruelty.

 

[MisterOGBongWater]

no. doesnt matter how many ppl feel the way i do. theres nothing i can do to change my situation. it hurts. its empty. its so fucking lonely. nothing is ever going to make me feel ok ever again

 

[ADBoy777]

yes and no
It's nice to feel sympathy and I find the communication through forums like this helpful and useful.

But in the end of the day it's me alone with my feelings and whatever I went through, no one shares the burden of pain with you

 

[ecliptic]

No, it just makes me want to be in the ground.

 

[MiraiShisen]

Thank you all for your response and opinion on this question, eventually you are right, it does not matter if there are others who are suffering, I will have to face it alone and I feel sad but at the same time I am happy that this happened to me and not to someone else. We are all equal when it comes to death or dying, nobody will suffer for us, nobody will die for us, everyone who is allive will have to pay this price its ultimate and inevitable.