Venting Does anyone not wish to die, neither to be alive?

[Suicidebydeath]

It's a bit like that for me. I don't want to be alive, suffering any longer, and I don't wish to die. I'm stuck in limbo. I still wish everything could just end, somehow. I wish I had peace. I was brought into this cruel existence, to live under a cruel family, and to suffer. If I had never existed at all it would be better, then I wouldn't have to die to end it all. I regret being alive and having memories. I wish I didn't have to die to end it all. I don't think people should be forced to live in this hell.

 

[jodes2]

I think I need to stick around for my gf but I don't want to live

 

[Angst Filled Fuck Up]

Dying is really fucking hard. I fantasize daily about nonexistence but I know how ugly and difficult the reality of crossing that threshold is. I guess that's why I never really understood these "when will u ctb" style posts or texts from people on here - it's like they're asking about when you'll go to the mall. And with N becoming near-impossible to source, I think it's going to become even harder.

I too wish I could just flip a switch and have it all be over.

 

[VirtualSnow]

This, I hate being alive, but the idea of dying is fucked too, no matter what happens it seems that things will be rigged against us. At this point I don't even wonder if there's an afterlife or not, I just wonder on why am I even here.

 

[IntoTheLight]

I wish it'd be as easy as waking up from a bad dream.

 

[tofargone]

I think I need to stick around for my gf but I don't want to live

I feel that 100%

 

[Forever Sleep]

Yes, absolutely agree. I really resent being alive and the fact that if any of us want to check out early, we have to leap through hoops of fire.

I'm of the same opinion as you- that it would have been better never to have existed. The bad outweighs the good.