KillingPain267

KillingPain267

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Opioids are the only things that truly calmed all my depression and most of my anxiety. I could have lost all my family, become homeless and be beaten up, but I would have been totally apathetic to it all when high as a kite on pills. Only problem is, I had to stop numbing my pain with pills, due to... cost. In the street they cost 10-15 times more than their pharmacy price. Is it cheaper when ordering from dark net markets?
 
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Opioids aren't a long term solution. It seems like it at first but if you take them all the time you'll start building up a chemical dependency on them and they just end up not working as well. (I did this) You might be better off going to a free clinic in your area and seeing about getting on some sort of psych med for depression/anxiety that might help. Good luck -
 
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Opioids aren't a long term solution. It seems like it at first but if you take them all the time you'll start building up a chemical dependency on them and they just end up not working as well. (I did this) You might be better off going to a free clinic in your area and seeing about getting on some sort of psych med for depression/anxiety that might help. Good luck -
I know. I built tolerance and when stopping I had horrible withdrawals. I went on suboxone treatment after that. I'm clean almost a year now, but it's just I crave. I've tried various depression and anxiety meds and am on some now, but nothing works as well as opioids to truly numb my pain. If I had access to unlimited opioids, I would just take more and more as I built tolerance until my body failed. At least I would be numb as it starts falling apart.
 
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I know. I built tolerance and when stopping I had horrible withdrawals. I went on suboxone treatment after that. I'm clean almost a year now, but it's just I crave. I've tried various depression and anxiety meds and am on some now, but nothing works as well as opioids to truly numb my pain. If I had access to unlimited opioids, I would just take more and more as I built tolerance until my body failed. At least I would be numb as it starts falling apart.
If you crave them that's bad. If you crave the feeling of not hurting then that's ok. I take opioids for chronic pain and the best they do is take the edge off of it. I work hard to not build up a dependency on them. My psych meds work about the same. It sucks less being on them than not.

Maybe that's where you're at with the depression & anxiety meds - they take the edge off of it. I gave up on hoping any kind of med will fix my pain or depression (bipolar) a long time ago. All they do is kinda kick you towards a place where you can start working on it. You may be stuck with some level of pain. It sucks, but if you get some relief from the meds you can try other methods that might help a little, like CBT, meditation; that sort of thing.
 
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