broken_stoic
Wander till you find your place
- Aug 21, 2024
- 164
I realize giving out the exact name on the forum might not be a great idea, but wondering if anyone knows of an organization that might take me? I am aware of the organization in CH and may contact them, but I'm not sure I qualify. I really would like someone to be there when I go. I am note quite 40, not terminally ill, but do have non-trivial mental health problems, had a severe breakdown (the second in my life) and 2.5 years later I'm still a mess. I've done all the right things the best I can, and each new intervention just leaves me worse off. I did TMS most recently and it actually fucked me up such that I really don't think I can get or hold a job. I don't respond well to pretty much anything other than therapy.
I was already in a bad place, but now with some new legislation that was passed in my country, I will likely lose healthcare in the next couple of months. Therapy, which I will not be able to afford without it, is all that is holding me together. I have other health issues that require hundreds of dollars of medication each month, etc. Basically if I don't land a job with good healthcare and manage to keep it in the next couple of months I'm fucked. And honestly . . . my mental health makes working a herculean challenge at this point. I've been white-knuckling for my whole career, and I finally cracked and I just don't think there's any going back now. I'm just to tired to keep going, and I'm nearly certain that if I do go back to working (if I can even get a job) I'll crack shortly thereafter.
I refuse to end up homeless dying on the street, I'd rather go out on my own, but I have a huge fear of death (probably a large part is religious trauma as I've mentioned in another post) and I'm not sure I can summon the will to go out on my own. Now, I do have savings still, and other funds I could leverage, so I can afford it (at the moment) if anyone knows of anywhere. Financially it will mean no going back, and they would need to be willing to take me relatively soon.
I would prefer a trustworthy organization and not an individual as I don't want to end up getting scammed or in someone's torture chamber.
I was already in a bad place, but now with some new legislation that was passed in my country, I will likely lose healthcare in the next couple of months. Therapy, which I will not be able to afford without it, is all that is holding me together. I have other health issues that require hundreds of dollars of medication each month, etc. Basically if I don't land a job with good healthcare and manage to keep it in the next couple of months I'm fucked. And honestly . . . my mental health makes working a herculean challenge at this point. I've been white-knuckling for my whole career, and I finally cracked and I just don't think there's any going back now. I'm just to tired to keep going, and I'm nearly certain that if I do go back to working (if I can even get a job) I'll crack shortly thereafter.
I refuse to end up homeless dying on the street, I'd rather go out on my own, but I have a huge fear of death (probably a large part is religious trauma as I've mentioned in another post) and I'm not sure I can summon the will to go out on my own. Now, I do have savings still, and other funds I could leverage, so I can afford it (at the moment) if anyone knows of anywhere. Financially it will mean no going back, and they would need to be willing to take me relatively soon.
I would prefer a trustworthy organization and not an individual as I don't want to end up getting scammed or in someone's torture chamber.
