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vercabow

watching all the stars burn out
Nov 22, 2024
98
by that i mean a playlist you'd listen to before you ctb. was just wondering since i have one myself.

please share! :)
 
HenryHenriksen_6E

HenryHenriksen_6E

Member
Oct 19, 2024
87
I'd probably make one, and the last song will probably be something ironic like 'highway to hell' or
'die by the blade' And no, I won't do any slicing and dicing, I just find the lyrics to be funny for someone that's about to off themselves.
 
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passedawayinapril

passedawayinapril

Burial
Nov 25, 2024
271
by that i mean a playlist you'd listen to before you ctb. was just wondering since i have one myself.

please share! :)
No
 
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guineapiglover8503

guineapiglover8503

Emily
Oct 7, 2024
155
by that i mean a playlist you'd listen to before you ctb. was just wondering since i have one myself.

please share! :)
Ive searched CTB on spotify before (along with related terms from this forum) and I have found good ones. There is also a playlist on spotify that I found which I listen to sometimes when cutting which I love.

One of my favorite songs to listen to tho when I feel like wanting to CTB is Ruru's Suicide Show on a Livestream by Shinsei Kamattechan bc of the music video. The backstory behind it is so depressing, though
 
TragedyBornCrimson

TragedyBornCrimson

I accept my eternal punishment
Oct 19, 2023
244
I have an anger playlist and a playlist called the monster inside me.
 
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LostLily

LostLily

Why do I exist?
Nov 18, 2024
755
I have a playlist for that on Spotify
 
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dust-in-the-wind

dust-in-the-wind

Animal Lover
Aug 24, 2024
925
My top 3 songs for cbt is Blue Oyster Cult-Dont Fear the Reaper. Foo Fighters - These Days, Death Cab For Cutie - Follow You Into the Dark.I want them played at my funeral.
 
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iDesireDeath

iDesireDeath

Member
Nov 26, 2024
48
by that i mean a playlist you'd listen to before you ctb. was just wondering since i have one myself.

please share! :)
If I were to I would listen to TGFD simplejosh composisiton.
 
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lonergirl_26

Student
Sep 1, 2024
147
Yess! The playlist is called "songs to die for"
 
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savory

Student
Nov 25, 2024
120
No, never was a fan of playlists. I'm more the shuffle or looper kind of gal. And I'm resistant to sharing my favorite music or songs with people unless I trust them.
 
ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

I have finally found my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,795
No. I don't really think there's a song out there that can portray how I feel and what goes through my mind. I've listened to some suicidal related songs that people here have talked about and none of it really applied to me
 
Fritz

Fritz

Member
Nov 24, 2024
66
No, but I've struggled with depression for 45 years and have created playlists "Sad Songs" I, I, and III. Some would fit for CTB
 
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lonesomedrifter

lonesomedrifter

To begin again, you have to let go
May 6, 2024
35
Everytime I feel awful, I listen to nostalgic Turkish songs from my childhood. It makes me wanna go back to that time, but ofcourse I cant. It makes me feel even worse haha. I convinced myself that if I end it, I will wake up as a child again and be able to be with my family and be happy
 
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littleadonis

littleadonis

We all deserve a choice.
Oct 27, 2024
75
Chop Suey by BYOB is a fitting final song.

"I don't think you trust in my self righteous suicide. I cry when angels deserve to die."
 
Fresh Soju

Fresh Soju

~🍻자살처럼🍶~
Oct 11, 2020
453
Depends on the CTB method, but something atmospheric would probably be my way to go, or something like certain Korean songs which bring me nostalgia.
 
other_name

other_name

Member
Sep 24, 2021
52
i just throw whatever i'm listening to at the time in here if it's melancholic enough and have it on shuffle
 
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