We sit back and indulge in pointless activities like going to restaraunts and eating burnt and tortured animals all the while there is war torn countries where parents are literally selling their own children for $10 so they can feed the rest of their children. I find it extremely disturbing how much suffering there is and how much nobody cares whatsoever beyond their own selfish desires. People think they are so righteous for reproducing and having kids all the while the resources allocated to new humans could be used to help people that are already suffering. People so absolutely nothing wrong and end up in prison for life on false allegations. Dogs get tortured and neglected. People prescribe harmful addictive drugs to kids and get rewarded with billions of dollars. It is just disgusting.
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bennydiazapine
Member
- Dec 4, 2022
- 87
Think about this stuff all the time, the whole "rat race" isn't for me.
bennydiazapine
Member
- Dec 4, 2022
- 87
Any side effects, withdrawals?
How many mg? Which one?
bennydiazapine
Member
- Dec 4, 2022
- 87
It's honestly been that long, I couldn't tell you. I don't know how much they've contributed to my current mental state. 3mg of Alprazolam a day, and 30mg of Diazepam a day.
I've gone through WD's for the Alprazolam early on, I went away for a short holiday and forgot my medicine - basically had a seizure when I woke up on the 3rd morning. Jaw was clenched and was shaking uncontrollably.
What symptoms are you having? Benzos absolutely destroyed me. Protracted withdrawal. I would look into getting off of them they make anxiety much worse according to their own studies after 8 weeks of use (that's why they only suggest 2-4 weeks of use)
pyamu
love u so much u guys r the only nice ones left
- Dec 14, 2021
- 38
I feel this. If I end up living, I'd like to work towards bettering the lives of other people who are suffering. It's disturbing how well off I am while others are suffering so much, but it's even more disturbing that such a reality like ours even exists in the first place.
bennydiazapine
Member
- Dec 4, 2022
- 87
Worst depression and suicide Idealization I've ever dealt with, Suicide attempt in December very well thought out and planned, very odd that I survived.
I dare say they've done the same to me, slowly take your soul just like the opiates.
Just depression? Like chemical depression or circumstantial? Any other symptoms like sleeping problems or anxiety?
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bennydiazapine
Member
- Dec 4, 2022
- 87
Diagnosed Depression, Exacerbated by recent circumstances. I've had a lot of trouble sleeping since I added opiates into the mix. My anxiety is usually manageable when I take my benzos - without them not a a chance.
But before that my sleep was generally good.The world in which we live really is disturbing, I totally agree. Sure, there are good things but they all feel corrupted to me. My perception of depression is that it's just a pulling back of the existential curtain or something like that. It's as if it works to deprogram human's evolutionary programming until they aren't even really integrated in this whole concept of earthly existence and the game of life but are now just a spectator viewing from the outside.
Pluto
Cat Extremist
- Dec 27, 2020
- 6,206
The worst part is that people are all for contributing to solving problems when it suits them, like posting the latest slacktivist cause on social media. But when a problem is too big, too horrible or too widespread, they instead switch off and detach from having any feeling towards it. So the worst corruptions, the darkest torture and the most despicable evils and are left to freely continue.
(And it could be added that the refusal to consider euthanasia in mainstream discourse is an example of this.)Definitely- it's a really messed up world. I think there's only SO much we can take on board as well though to be fair.
EVEN if we actually bother to act on the things that trouble us most eg. become vegan, buy food and commodities that are responsibly sourced and produced, try to consume less- bottom line is (as I see it) we are parasites. We have way overpopulated this planet to the point that it simply can't sustain us. EVERYTHING that humankind has invented or produced either furthers the development of humankind, or- tries to minimise the damage we have already inflicted.
So- even if you are living the most pure of lives and trying to reverse some of the damage- how much impact will it REALLY have? (Better than if you do nothing of course.) Still- it's like the great late comedian Sean Lock once said- fighting climate change through recycling etc. feels a bit like bringing a dustpan and brush to the aftermath of an earthquake.
I think many of us realise we CAN'T actually make that much meaningful difference. We can chose not to have children- I'm sure that helps. Still- apparently- we're not allowed to kill ourselves... (Offering VOLUNTARY assisted suicide WOULD cut down on the amount of people consuming the world's resources.)
So- we're stuck here- trying to do the little we can to help... We should be aware of all this stuff- definitely. We should do what we can to help- definitely. Still- we're not allowed to do the most meaningful act and remove ourselves from this mess. Plus- greedy corporations will continue to pump as much pollution as they can get away with into the environment. We will still be encouraged to consume as much as possible. So- what good will it do to keep dwelling on it?
I feel bad about it all- certainly but ultimately- I didn't choose to be a part of this to begin with and societies needs and norms are keeping me here against my will. I don't actually feel too bad for wanting and trying to distract myself from this shitshow when I can!
Gustav Hartmann
Enlightened
- Aug 28, 2021
- 1,307
In what kind of world do you want to live? Rhetorical question, I can imagine and I am afraid your world would bore me a lot.
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 46,829
Of course the way that this world is, is so incredibly disturbing. One can come to that conclusion just by having awareness of the horrific reality of existing. In fact the existence of life is a tragedy, as all that life is, is just a meaningless and insignificant cycle of suffering that very sadly continues to repeat as new life is brought here so unnecessarily. The only relief could ever lie in the thought of permanently not existing, the cruel reality of existence is why the thought of being dead comforts me so much.
And all of this is made so much worse by the fact that so many people continue to glorify life and push their delusional life valuing beliefs onto others, disregarding all of the suffering that exists and as a result stigmatising suicide. It's like they don't realise that life itself is the true problem, and it's disgusting how it's purposely so difficult for us to free ourselves from this hellish world.
UtopianSoliloquies
Act 3 Scene 1
- Jan 21, 2023
- 89
I think the amount of preventable suffering in this world is just not properly comprehendible for the limited cognitive capacity we have as humans. Even if you could remember every statistic about inequality and suffering in the world, you wouldn't be able to give those facts the emotional weight they deserve. To fully understand the misery in this world is a Sisyphean task, not to mention ever trying to fix it. But I have found that doing my infinitesimally small part on this earth does help somewhat in feeling better about living in such a shitshow. I don't know your situation though, so take that as you will.
locked*n*loaded
Archangel
- Apr 15, 2022
- 9,352
The world sucks. Nothing ever gets better. As a matter of fact new problems and issues just keep arising and the best that anyone can do is place a band-aid on them and maybe beat the problems back a bit for a while, like whack-a-mole. This world is never going to get better. The laws of entropy dictate that it can ONLY get worse.
Maybe collectively suck task would be surmountable if majority of people responsibly shared it between each other and acted like you, doing their infinitesimal part? Heck even small things like recycling, cleaning room, spending little time on social media and not indulging in porn would lead to self-improvement with potential to affect society in a positive way.
Is this why corruption exists and repeats after revolutions restore the order?
locked*n*loaded
Archangel
- Apr 15, 2022
- 9,352
I will give you my spiritual number so you can call me with ouija board. Gonna find out what the heck this all is and how many layers there is to the rabbit hole. I hope it's not matrix within matrix within matrix... And there are no fields where instead pods are enslaved universes... Nobody would believe you even if you had hypothetical proof. Not because they didn't believe but because they denied it intentionally to protect their peace of mind from existential threat.
I watched several movies where the bad ending reveals that the reality protagonist has been living in is actual dystopia. Most rarely ask about the existence and operate on autopilot. Maybe knowing the truth would take away everything worth living for because truth would mean it's self-defeating... Like a nightmare dream you wake from thinking about whole day and hope to forget
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uniqueusername39
Student
- Mar 7, 2023
- 186
ever heard of "ignorance is bliss"?
idiots are happier. happy idiots live longer. evolution likes happy idiots. it's the only way life could exist--by thrusting unwitting creatures who don't think too much about how terrible everything is into it.
Yet these idiots want the truth. How can you stay in that state of bliss and accept the truth? You can't and you see it in behavior of close minded people. What they don't understand they deny and mock and when mocking doesn't help they attack. The irony...
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locked*n*loaded
Archangel
- Apr 15, 2022
- 9,352
Bizarre.I will give you my spiritual number so you can call me with ouija board. Gonna find out what the heck this all is and how many layers there is to the rabbit hole. I hope it's not matrix within matrix within matrix... And there are no fields where instead pods are enslaved universes... Nobody would believe you even if you had hypothetical proof. Not because they didn't believe but because they denied it intentionally to protect their peace of mind from existential threat.
I watched several movies where the bad ending reveals that the reality protagonist has been living in is actual dystopia. Most rarely ask about the existence and operate on autopilot. Maybe knowing the truth would take away everything worth living for because truth would mean it's self-defeating... Like a nightmare dream you wake from thinking about whole day and hope to forget
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