yeah. sometimes i look at weird constructs or myself and how i feel and its like "why? i can just ignore it" from passive aggressive emails, my own loneliness, laws, whatever. i dont feel better than anyone for it even though i get frustrated (but idk i understand why people care) i just feel a bit lost and hollow. and i dont think it is entirely that i, myself am not human, but that this world is less human too. or is it the essence of being human? is being human cruel and methodical? is being human kind? is to be posthumanist, actually very human? is flesh more human than human made steel? is there a checklist of human traits to be human, or is just being born classified homo sapien enough?
i dont really believe in normies and NPCs though, i dont think its beneficial to outside of fucking around and finding out. everyones a few steps closer than they think they are. the steps are close, just frustrating to cross, and not even ordered up and down, theyre just some abstract shape we get splat onto by the spatula of organised matter and cells. it might be confusing that you are stuck to "you" and in a weird mode of existance (dazai was mentioned here! while i am not talking about him here, "no longer human" is mentioned in a simple mobile game; alter ego. one of the lines in the game from es, the character you interact with says "if you split my body in half, which side would i reside?"), theres value in assuming everyone is an undiscovered universe. when i was younger, i used to think some people just went through life with no thoughts, until i realised we thought pretty similarly with different exteriors. if people know to create video games in a 1st perspective then they are real or at least are real in an approximation to how you are real. ok sorry for derailing into exploring solipism but yeah i guess i thought i would pitch in on this because i find the discussion interesting.
