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suicideisgood

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Sep 7, 2020
35
I'm only 18 years old but life already lost all its magic i felt when i was a kid...
 
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muffin222

muffin222

Enlightened
Mar 31, 2020
1,187
Nope. My childhood was horrible, abusive, and neglectful. I barely remember any of it except for chunks and pieces. I often see people express this sentiment about childhood, but I've never been able to relate to it, sadly. I couldn't wait to be an adult and break free
 
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GoodPersonEffed

GoodPersonEffed

Brevity is my middle name, but my name was TL
Jan 11, 2020
6,726
I never felt life was magical as a kid, so I don't miss or mourn the loss of what I didn't have. I wonder if you can at least enjoy the memories, or go back to that feeling to soothe you. Like some people had comforting love from their parents that is always with them even when their parents are not, and can use it to soothe them throughout their lives.
I couldn't wait to be an adult and break free

Same here.
 
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kyubi

kyubi

Sep 17, 2020
5
I don't. I realised that so-called 'magic' is nothing but illusion, just pure nostalgia based only on positive memories. Like in Pink Floyd - High Hopes, 'the grass was greener', but was it really? I mean, I enjoyed my few years of childhood until my friends turned back on me when I was ~11 (I always played with older kids, so there was the time when they went into teenage years and didn't want to mess with kid like me), then loneliness hit me hard for veeeeery long time.
 
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suicideisgood

Member
Sep 7, 2020
35
I wonder if you can at least enjoy the memories, or go back to that feeling to soothe you.
Yea you can, i do it ocasionally
I don't. I realised that so-called 'magic' is nothing but illusion, just pure nostalgia based only on positive memories. Like in Pink Floyd - High Hopes, 'the grass was greener', but was it really?
I mean I'm aware of that now too but when I wasn't life felt pretty awesome
 
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Valon

Member
Sep 14, 2020
70
I feel you. I think I lost that feeling around age 20. I had my first real break up and got fired from my job all in the same year. I love the feeling nostalgia evokes, even though I know my life wasn't actually any better back then. Rose tinted glasses and all, you know.
 
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suicideisgood

Member
Sep 7, 2020
35
I feel you. I think I lost that feeling around age 20. I had my first real break up and got fired from my job all in the same year. I love the feeling nostalgia evokes, even though I know my life wasn't actually any better back then. Rose tinted glasses and all, you know.
I sometimes feel nostalgic for stuff i never even experienced
 
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AprilsBlessings

AprilsBlessings

Our tainted history is playing on repeat
Jul 26, 2020
172
i wish i could relate but my childhood was nothing but a nightmare, it was horrible in every possible way....
 
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suicideisgood

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Sep 7, 2020
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Eurus

Eurus

Everything Must Cease.
Sep 30, 2019
200
Yes,but as I am now older,I realize what it takes to actually be alive it's lost it's luster.
 
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Amile

Amile

Member
Sep 17, 2020
12
luckily I can relate, those times are obviously not perfect and i know than nostalgia is doing its job to beautify them, but I can't stop thinking it was a taste of Eden.

That those moments each day fade more frustrates me.
 
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suicideisgood

Member
Sep 7, 2020
35
luckily I can relate, those times are obviously not perfect and i know than nostalgia is doing its job to beautify them, but I can't stop thinking it was a taste of Eden.

That those moments each day fade more frustrates me.
I recently had a dream where i was standing above places i spent my childhood at and watching the younger me play there and realizing I'll never have that again
 
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Teal_Blue_Dreams

Teal_Blue_Dreams

Arcanist
Sep 15, 2020
401
YESSSSS! I miss the magic but nostalgia makes me so so so sad bc life now is so fucked up that I want to die.
 
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Ghost2211

Archangel
Jan 20, 2020
6,015
Life was literal hell from day one.
 
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defott

Member
Sep 16, 2020
15
Yes! Everything used to glow. I could do and be whatever I wanted. There was literally nothing but possibility. No deadend job, no abusive ex, no boyfriend who found you annoying because of your disability. No disability that ruins your chances at a good life with healthy relationships
 
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musicalpriest

musicalpriest

Member
Sep 16, 2020
21
Yeah. I miss the feeling of being taken care of. My mother was still pretty emotionally unavailable and made some decisions that really put me in bad positions mentally, but I felt taken care of; for the most part. Now I don't feel like anyone cares about me, as an adult.
 
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Worthless_nobody

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Feb 14, 2019
1,384
I definitely miss the innocent ignorance is bliss of childhood. As a child I had hope for a better future despite things not being good. Maybe it's just nostalgia but I miss that time of life..things were way better than now. It took time for the suicidal thoughts and depression to set in... probably happened about age 13 or 14. I have hated being and adult with the burning passion of a thousand dying suns. I'm not cut out for adult life. I failed miserably at everything..responsibility, financial independence, relationships (severe abuse in a relationship that killed my will to live), no "career" just pointless jobs...I just want to not feel anymore. Life feels like the biggest let down and lie.

Yes! Everything used to glow. I could do and be whatever I wanted. There was literally nothing but possibility. No deadend job, no abusive ex, no boyfriend who found you annoying because of your disability. No disability that ruins your chances at a good life with healthy relationships
I so relate! I feel like I wrote that myself! Sending you hugs.
 
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Panna

Panna

Enlightened
Aug 31, 2020
1,005
Yes, life was far more better while young, the main bit being the nostalgia that I could feel for everything. By this, everything had a scent to show how I felt. The smell of the sun while waiting on the hot asphalt for the bus to come and pick me up to school, or waiting for parents. The smell of the wind when the sun was setting in autumn when outside with my brothers. Everything had a smell to designate how I would feel, and then one day during my sophomore year of highschool it just died. I couldn't smell these smells anymore and its killed me ever since.
 
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Lost in a Dream

Lost in a Dream

He/him - Metal head
Feb 22, 2020
1,804
In the very beginning, life did feel like magic, but that changed when I started to get bullied at school and my dad turned into an abusive asshole. I've been depressed and had anger issues since then and it just keeps getting worse it seems like. Even though they didn't last very long, I really do miss the years when things were at least okay.
 
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Wayfaerer

Wayfaerer

JFMSUF
Aug 21, 2019
1,938
All I want is my 13-25 back, I don't care about reliving my childhood.
 
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Nymph

Nymph

he/him
Jul 15, 2020
2,564
My depression and anxiety started when I was a kid so nope..plus bullies and shit
 
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nitroautnz

nitroautnz

Specialist
Sep 11, 2020
361
I didn't have a terrible childhood, but neither a happy one. At least now I am free to do whatever. I was feeling alone back then and I still am.
 
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mathieu

mathieu

Enlightened
Jun 5, 2019
1,090
Yes, life was so good. The contrast to what it's like now is striking. I would give anything to back to when I was a kid. It all went wrong at 13 for me.
 
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Soul

Soul

gate gate paragate parasamgate bodhi svaha
Apr 12, 2019
4,704
I had a lousy childhood, with abusive alcoholic guardians, but I remember being awed by outer space; and also having moments of total disorientation when I couldn't tell where the boundaries of my body were, or what direction I was lying/floating in. I think I once read a term for that but I don't remember.
 
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woxihuanni

Illuminated
Aug 19, 2019
3,298
It didn't.
 
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Deathbydemo

Deathbydemo

Mage
Feb 15, 2020
518
Hmm maybe until the age of about 5, life was pretty damn perfect. My parents were still together and, from what I knew, happy. They split up shortly after that and my life was never the same. Things have been getting progressively worse as I grew up and now, aged 29, I am just done. Those first 5 years of my life were the best, and I would give anything to rewind back time to experience that even just for a minute.
 
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Lupgevif

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Jul 23, 2020
928
It didn't feel any magical. I had fun, yes, but I remember no "magic".
 
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2nd Zed

2nd Zed

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Feb 2, 2020
32
The world is the same, but we have changed
 

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DyingAlf

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Aug 22, 2020
345
Can't miss what I never had
 
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